[nicoleb2]

I have not been hospitalized for 6 months (a record for me after every 3 months or more for 4 years). I feel like I'm heading for needing to be there again. I'm si'ing frequentl, starting to feel suicidal... I have had some bad experiences with hospitals before and I don't want to go back but I don't know what to do anymmore...

[online user]

Are you in therapy? Probably a chat with your therapist would be in order. If not, you probably would benefit from finding a counselor for yourself.

What have you been doing to try to deal with your illness? Do you keep a journal? A lot of people find that helpful. When you are having an especially bad time, why don't you think about calling a hotline instead of hurting yourself? There are trained people there who can make some suggestions about things you can do. They'll talk to you and listen to you and help make things easier on you. Worth a try!

[Rohag]

Nicoleb2, you're just about to move to an apartment, yes? I imagine this is very stressful for you. Will you have help moving?

I hope you can get through this move gently and at your own pace. In any event, your safety is far more important than a perfectly efficient, smooth move.

[nicoleb2]

We are moving to an apt on saturday and have abbou 5 days to move. I am in thherapy but won't see my therapist for another week and a half. We will havve some help moving but I am still really stressed. I am also dealing with some bad chronic back pain for which I just started physical therapy, so any lifting I do makes me really hurt, but I can't stop.cause I have to get stuff done. I'm not journaling anymore because my therapist felt that it was making me feel worse. I can't seem to balance life, kids and mental illness anymore