[LILITH]

Here I sit all alone,but not. Feeling seperated, feeling weight on my shoulders and not knowing what I need to do next. I am moving into a new house in a couple of weeks. I had to draw on my strong self to come to my aid. I have so much to do and can't figure out how to do it. Like right at this moment I am having to wipe the steady stream of tears that keep running down my face. I can't cut them off. I have such overwhelming sadness and fright. I also realize I have no real family support. My daughter is the only one who really understands, but we can't bother her, for it will trigger her, and then she will become undone. She has her own issues. She is doing so well now. I can't let her know how I am really feeling. The holidays are bad for all of us. So here I sit in my dark hole, no light , nothing to embrace. My partner is sick with end stage Lyme disease and Multiple Sclerosis. She barley functions on a day to day level. I am there for her 24/7 but who will be there for me? No one.....

[dottie]

Hi. Maybe you and your daughter can learn to lean on each other? It's a possibility...no?

((((((((Safe Hugz))))))))))

[Beautiful_Pain]

I'm sorry to hear you are so alone. Do you not have a friend you trust or a T to talk to?

I do understand your feelings, I isolate and have no friends...recently lost my T and was feeling much as you are now, 3 days ago. I somehow got through it and hope you do as well. If you need someone to listen or anything, feel free to pm me, I will try my best =)

Take care of yourself as much as you can

--BP

[Overcastbutclearing]

(((((Lilith))))
You can lean on me...
I am sorry you are going through such a dark, lonely time.
I wish I could help you wipe your tears away.
I know how it feels to not think any one is there to give support.
Talk to me...

[LILITH]

Thank you! I am grateful for any support I can get.
Lilith

[EJ711]

Lilith,
I'm sorry everything is so hard and lonely for you right now. With losing a loved one and getting ready to move in a few weeks, your stress must be off the charts. After you've had your well-deserved cry, I would try to shift to thinking mode. Make a list of all the things you need to do, and start doing some of those tasks. Try to break them into as small tasks as possible. You can do it!!

Keep us posted.

Jane - Oz

((((((((Lilith)))))))))))

[DaveyJones]

Altheia,

It grieves me to hear your pain, sadness and confusion.
The need for another to help us bear our burdens is innate,
But we try to do it alone.
Go to your daughter and ask her to hold you.
Supporting you will give her strength, too,
Because she can do as you taught her,
And your faith in her will renew you both.

All our hearts are with you as you cross this valley,
Our hopes and prayers surround you like a great cloud.

Davey

[Lexicon78]

I'm really sorry you are in so much pain right now. I understand you not wanting to burden your daughter right now but don't you think she'd want you to turn to her instead of living in the lonely hell you are in right now? I mean everyone has issues, some more serious than others, but they are stronger than most of us give them credit for. I think your daughter has the strength to be well for herself and support you at the same time.

[(JD)]

((hugs)))

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((Lilith)))))))))))))

[Wants2Fly]

I can understand why you would feel alone, with all that's going on. As said, stress levels must be off the charts. Prayers and hugs.