disconnected thats me!

I am new to this! Not to depression and addiction, but I am feeling so disconnected right now I don't get it. I am on methadone for a pill addiction I had thanks to the wonderful Dr.s that I got them from for my pain. Don't get me wrong I am not blaming them it is my fault as much as it is theirs. The point is I am feeling so dis-connected my head is so full of doubt about my ability to cope. I am scared I will lose it all and be homeless. I have no one to talk to. Don't feel like anyone close to me gets me! It's not that easy to explain to someone that has never been there. I know I have to be the one to help me but I don't feel like it just now. How do I get to feeling like it before it's to late? There is so much more to this I am just having a hard time right now just trying to write so much anxiety and every one around me does not see it I hide it well. if anyone has questions as I know I probably left out some key thoughts just ask. I need ideas!

Bless your heart ~ you seem to be suffering from ALOT of anxiety!

Why do you feel you will be homeless? Is it your inability to take responsibility, i.e. paying the rent, etc.?? You've been doing it all this time -- why would you be more likely to end up homeless?

I know the feeling of being disconnected. I too had a 'bout' with that in the past. Nothing seemed to make any sense -- the anxiety was more than I could handle!!! I talked to my doc about it, and he put me on an antianxiety medication --- but if you're having trouble with medications, I'm not sure this would be the best avenue for you to take!!!

Why not ask for a referral to a good therapist/counselor? I've been thru therapy too, and believe me -- it did me a WORLD of good!! I saw that my anxiety was of my own making -- that almost all of my fears were unfounded. I spent too much time in my head -- I was listening to all the doubts & fears that the "person" inside my head was telling me! LOL Once I realized that these fears were unlikely to happen -- and that I had been functioning quite well all along -- I started to "recover." I felt less fearful & didn't doubt my abilities quite as much.

Please get a referral -- if you can't afford it, call your county's Council on Mental health (or whatever they call it) and see if they offer counseling based on ability to pay (or free!!). Some county's do have that benefit. God bless and take care. Please keep us posted on your progress. Hugs, Lee

Thanks, I no I am suffering bad. I will try the county thing if I can just make the call. I feel like I will be homeless because of not being able to function well enough to find a job. so much high anxiety.