[Mystry]

I'm scaared iwasn't going to let it scare me i wasn't going to let it get inside I tried so hard but the headaches the screaming the busy intersection where the light just stayed red until i thought I'd just get out of the car and runor the the smell of mold that seems to ...Icant rember i don't wnt to bremer..I was feeling so damn good when I came here tonight I even walked to my neices and back i want to no i don't want I want tolive i want to see the hes no good you know he's a raving lunatic the tears feel so heavy splash slpash splash i can hear themwhat good does it do I can't help aaaanyone when i my father used to ask me aquestion what makes this sound snap click this you may find amusing a 357 unlocked and cocked
I tyr so hard not to remember i can't remember i won'tlet myself remember not htis time it's no use i can see it all in full living color like it was yesterday I just got up in the morning and was going down for breakfast it was such a nice day out sorry I am sorry why aam I? I 'm still a little boy inside istillwant to see the world as a caring loving place I believe ... bys hwring our mis fortunes by asking for help does anyone really care tears tears and more tears iaama confused person i don't want to remember I DON"T WANT TO REMEMBER...But I do...........
I woke up this morning
with the sun shinning in my eyes
got out of bed
your whispers in my head
and that's when I realized
I loved you

I walked to the bathroom
turned on the shower and climbed inside
feeling the heat
as it swirled around my feet
thinking baby there's nothing to decide
I love you
so...
Take my heart away
like you take my breath away
everytime I look into your eyes
I swear there's no place else I'd rather be

stumbling from the shower
I hear you stirring in your sleep
and it makes me smile
like a foolish child
with a secret that I just can't keep
because I love you
You look so sweet to me
as I watch you as you breath
wanting you
the way I do
work is just gonna have to wait
and I love you
so
Take my heart away
like you take my breath away
everytime I look into your eyes
I swear there's no place else I'd rather be
take my heart away
like you take my breath away
everytime I look into your eyes
I swear there's no place else I'd rather be
so please...

Mystry

[Beautiful_Pain]

{{{{{Mystry}}}}}

I'm so glad you are able to love after what's happened to you. You are so strong, I believe.

Take good care of yourself =)

[hillbunnyb]

Gorgeous poem. thank you. take care.

[Lexicon78]

(((((Mystry)))))

Hang in there. We are all here for you. Be kind to yourself and keep posting. You need to get all this out.

[Mystry]

I don't remember writing this...and that's what's scary about what is happening in my life, I often find things that I apparently wrote but have no idea what it is about. I am going to get help, even if it means...these forums have been such an eye opener for me...I have a question though... is it possible to read other peoples posts and trigger some kind of phycosis in yourself...I noticed yesterday that as I was reading one of the posts I started to become drained and shaky...anyway thankyou all.

Mystry

[Lexicon78]

Mystry, I think that we often are triggered by other's people's posts, experiences, and memories. I know I am. Try to hang in there.