I feel so alone! I´m not alone in that way that I don´t have any friends... But I want to be understood and accepted for who I am! I feel locked up inside myself! I need to give and to receive love! I have a lot of feelings inside that wants to come out to the light! Feel so lonely like in a dark, black hole!

i understand your feelings, ninni. it isn't unusual for depresion to cause this.

[(JD)]

((ninni)) that's depression. PC is a good place to let those feelings out.. at least, that's what most of us do. So many of us in that black hole, and yet, we all feel alone there.

[Mystry]

..............Hang on...............
when your down
and feeling lonely
and the world seems so cold
just look here
for some comfort
for a hand that you can hold
and hang on
hang on
we'll never let you go
just hang on
hang on
and one day you will know
such freedom
yes freedom
and then you will surely glow
so hang on
just hang on
coz, we'll never let you go

a poem for you, I hope it helps...
]]]]]]]]]]]]]Ninni[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[
........... ...........

I'm sorry that you are feeling so alone.

Did you make back connection with the friend you had a misundertanding with? If not, I know this isn't helping you out because you are grieving that friendship.

I have to say that I'm feeling the same thing as you are. It's a very hard place to be. You want people to understand but yet many will not because they don't feel it not because they are mean but just that they can't feel something that they are not experiencing. But I also know that this is not helping you out.

At least, here on this site, you can share and give love. You can give and receive. It is not the same as if we were close to you but, I know for me, it does help a lot.

Not many people will understand Ninni, and a lot of us here are alone with these feelings inside us. All we can do is try.

((((((((((((Ninni)))))))))))

[backandforth]

I understand what you're saying... I find myself feeling alone among my friends, my family... people in general. Not always but a lot. Sometimes the more people, the more lonely I feel. It's weird, isn't it?? You're nt alone though, you may feel alone, but you'll never be alone... if you can reach out, reach out.. if you can find someone who's willing to listen and hold out their hand to you, reach out.... if you feel like in the end, you're still lonely, come here and you will always find someone. We're all in the same boat here. All trying to understand feeling lonely despite having people surround us.

[jmo531]

(((((((((((NINNI))))))))))))

As much as you feel alone, you are not. We are with you fighting the same battle. Keep talking, ok? I am here for you.

Thanks, for your supportive words!!! They mean a lot to me! I´m usually not the one asking for help...but I guess that I´ve got to learn to do that... Thanks, for the uplifting poem, Mystry!!!!!

(((((((((((You all))))))))))

[Fuzzybear]

hang in there with us... (((((((((((((Nina))))))))))))))

[hazeleyes]

(((Ninni)))) It's lonely in the black hole, I know. You may smile and seem happy around friends and family but the inside is dead and crying for help. Lots of fear and anxiety. Some minutes are ok, some days worse than others. Time will move on and we will probably grow and learn if we keep on searching and don't hide ourselves.... I'm with you on this one. Being there too....

[Merlin]

(((Ninni)))

It is so hard to be alone. I have friends at home, but few at school, and the idea of trying to make some more in this state seems impossible. After all what is at all attractive about a young woman who bounces in and out of depression.

Even my friends at hope don't understand my depression and other mental illnesses, so in that sense I am alone. If I look at things from a certain perspective that I will always feel alone.

Sometimes I think that isn't all bad though. Maybe I can work out my problems and during that time limit the hurt done to those around me. Not that I am certain I can.

We are all alone, and we are all not, but I hope you can feel the benefits of being alone and the benefits of sharing your pain with people who understand.

Laura