Man This Is Rough

Loneliness is crippling. You know, it's kind of funny....I pushed away all of the friends I had over the last few years since I thought I was doing them a favor (not to have to be around me anymore) and here I am... lonely and lost and as depressed as ever. I am so discouraged at this point that I have lost my way. I feel like I have no sense of direction or purpose. I say "why would anybody want to be around me". I am not able to contribute to a conversation 'cause I know that I am no longer intersting. What to do...............

I can understand your feeling, i am in a similiar situation after having neglected my wife for sometime, god has shown me my place, i have asked for forgiveness and trying my best to move on. try to be a good person.

I agree too that the loneliness is torture especially when the depression starts. I know I have to aggressively fight the isolation issue as I naturally am a loner. I've come to the conclusion that the only ones who can connect with me over these issues are fellow sufferers of depression. The average person is just too intimidated somehow. You can try to reconnect with old friends even superficially and see what happens. Force the interaction to see their reaction. Maybe they are wondering what happened to you.

If you feel lost now, what guided you and kept you going before? I try to grasp anything that brought me simple pleasure. When I feel as bad as you describe, I focus not on the day but on the moment--an hour at a time. That's what I have to do. The future becomes worries that I can't figure out.

I hope you are feeling better and know there are plenty who feel as you.

Thanks for the reply. I guess I chose the wrong wording when I said that now I'm lost, etc. I have actually been that way for as long as I can remember. I can't find anything to grasp, and I know that I need somebody that I can talk with (even electronically). I agree with you that the only person who can really, really know what you're going through is someone who has either been through it of is going through it now. I think that you make a good point when you said that you deal with things in the moment instead of thinking about the whole day, week, month ahead. I can't even imagine looking forward to anything, because it winds up being the same as the day before. Depression has knocked me down and stepped on me for so long now. It hurts a lot.....