Last months I've been getting more miserable by the day. Its been hard trying to deal with life. To share some about my situation, I'm an exchange student in the USA, but what was once a dream, is now a living hell, I am currently not living with my host parents anymore, but with the mother of one of them, my original host parents are 2 guys, a gay couple. I had alot of issues there, one of the host parents was bipolar, but refuses to take his meds. It was a very unstable place to be. During my stay(I've been there since august) about a month ago, my grandma passed away. That was hard to cope with. There has been many things in my past that contribute to this. But its to much to go into right now.
I've been Struggling alot, Im trying to change families, the first time it didn't work out, they couldnt find anyone, but im giving it one more shot, otherwise im going back home. I can't really cope with all this crap anymore, and im so far away from everything that kept me from giving up before.

[missbelle]

Isn't there some way you can contact the original group that placed you here? What a mess! They certainly did not screen the people that well. Although maybe they had no way of knowing the one guy was not taking his meds.

To not be home and in a strange country has got to be stressful anyway. You have been dealing with a lot and frankly should be happy that you are still doing that well. Good for you!!

I am so sorry about your grandma passing and you not being home.It was good you vented here. I think it helps just to put it on paper. I have done that and went "wow...I know why I am depressed and I have a right to be!"

Hopefully you are in touch with your family and they are supportive . I am glad you posted though..We look at people and think everyone is o.k. but its so its nice to hear personal stories. I am glad you shared that. Well things have got to get better!!!I hope they do and soon!!!!

Keep me posted on the situation. You were very brave to even come here. Sorry it was not at all what you expected it to be!!

Hugs;

p.s. I just love the kitty pic..."I has a sad"

I am currently In contact with the organization that placed me here, they want to try and help before I go back, they have been informed that I want to leave otherwise. He(one host parent) was emotionally abusive to me, at least in my perception. Even now he tries to make me feel like crap, but he makes sure that whatever he says I cannot use against him.
I have been on PC for almost a year now, will be November 22th, after the loss of a close member, I've been away from the forums for the most part. But I realize it'll be good for me to seek help here, even though I am in the chats very often. I feel kinda abandoned by the organizations, like they don't care about me enough to actually do anything. I'm in a bad situation, I want out, even though the woman i'm with isn't bad to me, its still same family, and she is never home, never does anything, completely different from me, in every single way, and also very religious. wich I am most certainly not.

[alwaysrejoice]

I hope you find a better family and have a better experience. What BS that you got stuck with a couple who weren't able to properly care for you. I hope things work out real soon, and I love the kitty picture too.

[SophiaG]

Jbear! Havnt spoken in a while I've not been on much. Im sooo sorry things aren't too great and that your in such a messed up sitch. *hugs*. Sorry to hear about your grandma! Hope things look up soon! Pm me anytime-- we havnt spoke in a while! x