[maynardssillygirl]

This has been a rough few weeks. Finals, the flu, etc. Also I have been split between two relatinships...one between and ex and one between a really stable guy that sorta counteracted my negative thinking. Ugg, it has been a hard few months...but I am still truckin', waiting for a happy day. A happy day will come, eventually. I am late, about 10 days late. The problem is I was having a really depressed day and I slept with a guy that night, I didnt make the effort to...but I was in a devastated mood. I had not slept for days, my anxiety was through the roof and I was home alone and isolated (again). So he offered to come over, but at the time I was stuck between the two guys. So I didnt resist when he put the moves on me, but then a few weeks later I slept with the ex. Now I am late and I am freaking out. How does a depressed nutbag like me cope with being a single mother? How in the hell? I have no support system...or at least a very minimal one. I feel like I just want to not be me for one day, like I just want to not be here at all. I need a vacation from myself. A little bit of relief. Please God, Please whomever...please someone help me. I have been having to work with the flu, it has been hell I just have to work. I am a late twenties college student with no real support system. I am on Pristiq and a new medication called Viibryd. The Viibryd is a "add on" anti-depressant. It's supposed to boost the affects of the anti-depressant you are already on. Seems pretty hoaky. I am convinced though that my tramadol medication that I take for my migraines helps more then anything. If I take just 100mg of trmadol I feel a slight mood boost. I don't know what to say, I just don't feel right today. I still have the flu and I have to go to work, so I know that doesn't help but I know staying home and wallowing in misery isnt any better. Please reply!

[Rohag]

Hello, Maynardssillygirl!

Originally Posted by maynardssillygirl

This has been a rough few weeks. Finals, the flu, etc. Also I have been split between two relatinships...

Oh, yes. That qualifies for rough. Throw in the holidays and, well, even more so.

Originally Posted by maynardssillygirl

I am a late twenties college student with no real support system.

And that makes it rougher. Can the folks who oversee your meds recommend anything beyond meds?

[maynardssillygirl]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hello, Maynardssillygirl!

Oh, yes. That qualifies for rough. Throw in the holidays and, well, even more so.

And that makes it rougher. Can the folks who oversee your meds recommend anything beyond meds?

I live in a small community and we only have one community based service that helps people with mental illness. I do attend a support group on occasion and I also see the couselor something, but sometimes I'm not sure how much that is helping. He diagnosed me with pssd, and told me to do some weird excercises so I can be able to read faces better (think I already do that well). I think most of my depression is related to the death of my father when I was 18. I feel like so many times I need a real man in my life who can be a model for the way I should be...strong and dilligent. Since I am a fairly attractive young girl most men cannot get around that long enough to get close to me.

[Towanda]

You are certainly dealing with alot. But you are right - staying home and wallowing, as you put it, is not good either. I don't know about you, but when I isolate, my thoughts go way beyond the present and all of a sudden everything, including years into the future, seems in peril and gone haywire. I'm a 58yo college student dealing with several health issues that came up this year that may prevent me from evenr working again, but I'm determined to finish my degree (Psychology). and return to Psych nursing. I am both Bipolar and Borderline and some mornings it takes everything I've got just to crawl out of bed. Especially now with the holidays and a major depression giving me a big dose of the "bah humbugs".

You've got multiple issues going on. Try to separate them and deal with one at a time. The flu won't last forever, thank goodness, and that will help. Try not to give in to the temptation to take extra Tramadol - you don't know how that may be affecting your other meds. That's a dangerous habit to start - I know, I've been there.

Good luck - try to keep at least one positive thought in your mind every day. I know it sounds hokey and hard to do but it really works.