Nothing matters

I am at the point in my life that nothing matters and I mean nothing. Not myself, kids, family or what ever. This is, I guess, scary. I tell my psychiatrist this and he is on me right away. "This is not true" "What is true?" and I am like "sorry nothing at all matters" And he tells me "What is telling you that nothing matters is your depression, in reality everything matters. So where am I. Lost in my own depression. Trying to fight back. But if nothing matters then I don't matter and neither does life.

It may well look to you as if nothing matters, but you need to understand and accept that that perception is not a vision of eternal human truth, that you are not joining in an objective perception the way you would if you went to a football game and watched the teams with all the other spectators, sharing a joint vision of what's going on in the field.

What you're seeing (and feeling) is a personal perception of yours that others don't share. And not only is it a personal perception, it's a perception that you perceive because you are ill. A wrong, erroneous and untrue perception. My saying that is in no way denying the reality of how you feel and what you feel. Those feelings are very real. But the perception (nothing matters and you mean nothing) is totally off-base, by no means whatsoever a perception on which you can act, take measures, do things, put stuff into practice.

If you accept your wrong perceptions as real, you are very, very likely to do things that you will later regret terribly, deeply, and with deep remorse. There's only one way out of your trap: accept your perceptions as the warped, off-base, inaccurate creations of your illness: Depression. Seek more help and better medications from your therapist and/or psychiatrist. Then do your own part, which means practicing every day your understanding that in reality plenty of things matter, including you and what you do.

If you've ever had more than enough to drink, you'll be somewhat familiar with the way a chemical (alcohol) can change the way you see things. There are other chemicals like that (what we normally call drugs) that can change your perceptions. So it's not really a great leap of faith to go from there to understanding and accepting that at certain times a person's brain can generate chemicals (or not make enough of certain chemicals) that change how you see things and how you think and feel. It's all just chemicals.

And if it's all just chemicals, then it's not reality. And if it's not reality, then you just have the mental equivalent of pneumonia, a bad flu, prostatitis or a yeast infection. And that illness is making you see and feel things that aren't there. And you'll get better! Do NOT do anything silly! Take care.

What Ygrec said, and I accept you feel the way you feel.

Hi depressedalaskan.

If the life you currently have is not giving you meaning or satisfaction, it's an idea to do something entirely new. To break out of your current unsatisfying life.

The first thing that comes to mind is doing fitness very seriously. It's a hobby you can put hours of your day into, and gets your mind of depression, not to mention it makes you feel good on the in and outside.

I belief depression is often caused by someone's environment (their culture, life, friends, job, hobbies, etc.) If this is giving you depression, I think it's sensible to try something very new. And exercise is a great way to begin something new in life.

(Some things that helped me a lot were the johnstonefitness forum, the burn the fat feed the muscle program. If you want do a googe search for them and they'll show up.)

Also I very much agree with Ygrec, and I think doing a new major activity in life can change your perceptions on the world. Another major thing you can do is changing yourself socially. With that I mean that you become a new social person. Once I learned to have better conversations with people I became a lot happier. Improving your conversation skills was for me a big way to break out of my severe depression. Exercise or improving your conversation skills can change your vision on the world.

Take care.

it's a dark place..and most often depression has a racing mind....in one way to fight back but in another to remind whats going on!

awesome madness and terrible.

I have expectations even I am unaware of ....and in todays world they....kill me

it's a lonely place..

but friend....you are not alone.

many people have 'been' before you and I...

and I am certain that they suffered somewhat....but they have passed away and we are left to prove them right!

the nicest people hurt the most....

and maybe just a couple of things matter..

everything can screw itself!

just a couple of things might matter...

jboy