Daily Check In - Ups and Downs

Checking in because I promised myself I would. Hope tomorrow is better.
Nite All
Nams

Another setback at work. I decided all I can do is laugh it off, accept that the culture won't change and keep looking for another job.

Good luck with the job hunt....I am in the same boat, only I am not so good at laughing it off. Hopefully tomorrow will be better for both of us.

OK day! I'm still feeling isolated and have a sinking feeling. But compared to 2 weeks ago, I am much better!

Feeling back to myself, finally, after a long weekend of depression.

"That which does not kill me makes me stronger".

Buggs - I've used that line myself - yet I wonder how many of us really believe it?

Past couple of days have been pretty good I have this sudden surge of energy that came out of no where been bouncing off the walls mind racing and such I guess you could describe it as mania? I work in production so it pays off when i get like this.

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My day was okay. Spend too much time alone. Need to start calling and getting together with friends. Just don't want to bring them down. I could fake being happy until I am. I don't know what to do. I do have a few friends checking in to see if my depression has diminished and that really helps!

At least 90% of what we worry about and hold "what if" conversations about never happens.
I'll see if this holds true after next week's meeting

Well, so much for my positive outlook, because the meeting was cancelled

Plan B - "It is easier to ask for forgiveness than permission".

"Life is something to do when you can't get to sleep."
Fran Lebowitz.
Basicly I have been so tired that all I want to do is sleep, and hide away from the world, have no more energy, emotionally, or physically.

I can relate. One of my closest friends never gives up trying to get me to go out. I'm surprised cause I haven't been doing anything since September I figured he would have cursed me by now. Friends like that are hard to come by. Appreciate them.....:-) and ok is better than not ok

-Trish
"Don't curse the rain, without it things don't grow. Instead find the beauty in it."

The last couple of days have been bad. I am starting to think my meds have stopped working because I have been like this fir over a week. It's a good thing I see pdoc next week.

Feeling just a little blue which for me is a good thing, I guess. Sick to boot so that doesn't help.
Hugs to all
Nams

I'm okay. Still waiting for the med side effects to wear off.

Ugh I hate side effects! Especailly the ones you feel when you are just begininng a med. I always swear there is something wrong with me and I need to go to a doctor always feel like I am going to die I always seem to forget to blame the darn medication. Weird. Xoxoxo

I can't speak for anyone else, but i believe it. I am a strong person inside because of the things I have survived. After giving it many times of thought, I decided I would rather not change my past (hospitalizations and all) because each event has contributed to who I am; and I have been told there is a core of strength in me that is unusually strong. And anyway, just telling myself that helps me get through the hardest times of all.
~Buggs

Checking in, still got the flu - so , gonna have a nap, but I am feeling really cared about today.......Thanks for all the hugz guys they really do help.

Have a good day all
Nams

Feeling bored today. Guess I have to find some sort of trouble to get into. Cheers all.

Today, seems sad and unreal. i am not suppose to have side affects from this medication after a month but...i think my tongue is swollen...or fatter than before. i cannot see the tear drop anymore because of my fat tongue. Plus i have all kinds of neck pain and to my surprise elbow pain in both arms. i stopped taking the medication slowly...and now i am off it for a day. My tongue has gotten smaller...i can see the tear drop again. i am still biting my tongue but it is much better.

Checkin in because I promised myself I would.

Hugz to all
Nams

I'm sad. This sucks. I actually would like to get something for Valentine's Day from someone I love at least once. The carnation from the cashier at lunch doesn't count. He gives one to every female customer. I'm finally involved with a guy on Valentine's and he apparently doesn't believe in it.

Not so good today. I don't really have any reason, and thinking about that makes me feel selfish, which makes things worse.

I feel generally alright today. Which is surprising considering how turbulent my moods, actions, and thoughts have been in the past two weeks.

I didn't get overly stressed out, didn't have a bad headache. Those are both pretty big for me. I'm also surprised that I wasn't extremely irritable today, because I've had an extreme lack of sleep lately. I've been unable to get more than 4 and a half hours for two or three weeks.

So busy at work that I let go of a lot of my worries and sadness today.
Of course, now I'm home and it is barely passed dinner hour and I just want to sleep.

Feeling so depressed- I had everything but lost it all...impossible to feel good ever