How to get rid of this feeling?

How do you stop the extreme sadness inside that hurts so bad, It's worst than what I call depression.. its usually what i used to call "Feeling suicidal" but... how does one make this go away? even if it's just for a split second, that's one split second longer than whats going on right now...
I kinda wanna cry.. but then I dont.. even tho i'm alone in my room.. And i dont think that would help even if I tried... but i haven't tried it so i wouldn't know...

Lexi, have you ever tried to reach out to a church? Some churches are so supportive and many have found a family atmosphere in their churches. Some churches do more than just pray, they are active in the community and many people donate time to offering support, soup kitchens and other areas of service.

I would like to see you find a group of postive people and become more apart of a community than just be on your own. I think you need to find some mentors who can help you become more active and postive. These people don't always just come to you, you have to try to reach out, they are out there Lexi, there are good people out in this world.

(((((Hugs)))))

Open Eyes

...I'm still so very depressed..
But when i went to see the T today.. She made sure i was okay with it, then put me on a waiting list for appartments owned by the place where she works. I dont know how long that waiting list is, for both cities that she put in for, for me. Nor do I know if they are just that-appartments- or if theres group therapy or activities or anything.. i dont even know what they look like..
But this makes me a little bit better thinking on this... even tho i'm really hopeless that it wont happen, cause i never win anything, i never am the lucky one, i'm never picked-except for being picked last when no one else is left to pick from-, and waiting might as well be never or forever... Cause thats how my emotions automatically take it, if i were to give words to the feelings..
We talked about hospitalization... I said i didn't need it.. If i didn't have my pets then I might of agreed to it... Atleast there i can eat, and i can sleep.
Theres not really anything i can do or goto around here, so i'm a bit on an island here(not really, but in figuratively speaking).

Thanks (((((OpenEyes)))))!!

I would like to underline the suggestions open eyes shared above. I am often really depressed and hopeless. I have found people at the church I attend to be really supportive and helpful. Many of the larger ones have support groups and sometimes counselors on staff that are always willing to help
The presence of sympathetic and supportive people is my lifeline when I am depressed. Even though I am not always the most fun to be around. The chat rooms here at pc can also help. A lot of times I just hang out and let others talk.
Finally I keep pets, it is amazing how much my dogs and cat provide a sense of comfort when I am down.
I cannot begin to know what you are going through or even how you feel. But I do have to deal with depression a lot. I need more than pills to keep me going.
I really do care and i hope & pray you will find the healing you need

Lexi232 Im very sorry you feel like this, and so Did I once, When Im depressed I always think about something that now-days gets me through my own life, and this is see life as what it really is "A privileged" there are many people that are in real pain, that has been killed, babies that dont get the chance to see the sunlight, and WE ARE HERE LEXI, healthy, full of LIFE, dealing with depression is not easy, but WE CAN OVERCOME THIS, Im want to be happy again, and and want you to be HAPPY TOO.

XOXO

Young Man 20

I feel exactly like this & I wanted to get T to understand it, but I don't think she did. I couldn't put it in words like you have here so maybe that's why. I wonder the sane thing tho & it's even more frustrating when you don't know y you feel like that or your triggers.

Thanks everyone, i will try my best to try to find somewhere. groups, churches, or something...

And SoFragile88, feel free to print it out and use it if you want. or write it down, if that could help you get your point across to your T. You're T really needs to know what's going on, or she/he wont be able to fully help you as much as they could if they understood fully.

Thanks...I just copied & pasted in my notes 8)

I feel like I'm not good with writing my words out in a way that people can understand how I feel 8\

I get that way too. So I know how that is.