it happened again

last night i went to go to bed... my b/f was already sleeping and i had that feeling again as if there was someone was in the closet or watching me...my heart started racing and i got really scared... all i could do was lay cuddle up next to my b/f cause i didnt want to wake him up..... then this mornig i went out to stat my car and was scared to be in there by myself.. what is going on... this is really freaking me out

I know this really scaring you. When this happens tell yourself you are fine and that no one is gonna hurt you. You just need to challenge what you are thinking or feeling right now.

Try to hang in there. If you become so afraid that you cannot control it, then tell a T or someone...talk to someone. And to make yourself feel a little more safer you can always carry something like a whistle or mace with you if that would help.

Hang in there.

Dear Skittles,

Keep working on HEALING YOU and the wounded past that hurt you so and in time the scary feeling will just vanish.... never to be felt again.

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

what is up with that feeling? My doctor put me on meds for that and said it was panic attacks. Meds didn't work and my "freak outs" got worse. I totally feel the irritation of not knowing what is going on. The way I explain the feeling is being almost asleep and some one jumps at you. the feeling is that brief second that you loose your breath and want to scream but can't. I feel like that all of the time. Some times to the point that i lock myself in a room crying and shaking.
I hope you can learn to control it and if you do tell me how you did it.