[Puffyprue]

LOrd i hate you ..i hate you for every singloe thing tat you've done to me
I HATE YOU .... I REALLLY DO
!!!!!!!!

[Leed]

Gosh, I hope you're not saying that you hate God !! Cause God doesn't DO things to us, or cause things to happen to us. I know it seems like it, but that's not the way it happens.

"Life" causes things to happen. Circumstances cause it. People as a whole cause it. The government causes it. God walks along WITH us to make sure that we get THRU it. And sometimes he has to carry us cause we're not strong enough to make it ourselves. But He sure doesn't cause it. We He gave us this world, He "let" us do with it as we might -- without interfering. We've made a mess of it alright. Maybe He SHOULD step in and do something about it!

Please -- I hope you're not hating God. Cause He loves YOU. Hugs, Lee

[Puffyprue]

what did i do to deserved to be crippled?

who did this to me? my parent?WHO???

[dailyhealing]

Hi puffyprue. It sounds like you are angry? I don't really know you or your specific situation. So I don't really know what it is you are angry about, but I'd be curious to know if you wanted to share that. As for what you did to deserve this? My own opinion is that nobody "deserves" to suffer. Yet we all do. And some way more than others! However, I don't think it is "done" to us. I think it just happens. Humans are often cruel. Bad things happen to really good people every day. As for God, I don't see God as doing things to people. I don't think God "works" that way. I think my best feeling of God is that God is love, and I do believe that love is healing to people. But if you believe differently, and you are angry at God, then I think that is ok. I hope you will find some healing along the way also.

Either way, I guess what I'm trying to say is I am sorry you are feeling badly. I appreciate your sharing this on here and hope you are feeling better soon!

[madisgram]

puffy prue

[ImMentallyILL]

Originally Posted by puffyprue

what did i do to deserved to be crippled?

who did this to me? my parent?WHO???

are you serious?

[turquoisesea]

((((((puffyprue)))))

I'm sorry

Life throws us hard balls sometimes. I don't dare say that I have suffered like you have, I don't claim to know how you've been crippled, and how life is hitting you right now. One thing I have learned though, over time, is that there are ways to make the best of bad situations... that you can heal from being crippled, either physically or emotionally (emotionally for me, I genuinely was very hurt, very badly damaged and I am healing). I also know that depression can make it seem like that healing is impossible.

Please don't let depression kill your hope.


Do you want to talk about about what has happened to you? Maybe it would help to get it off your chest

[Rohag]

No matter how you feel...
((((((( Puffyprue! )))))))

[Puffyprue]

Physically : Nothing can heal me so i ahve to live like this for the rest of my life

Mentally : i think almost the same

i just want this to be over , iam tired!

Originally Posted by puffyprue

Physically : Nothing can heal me so i ahve to live like this for the rest of my life

Mentally : i think almost the same

i just want this to be over , iam tired!

I can identify with that but...I see people who are worse physically than I am and they seem to have found something within themselves to give them motivation to remain connected to life and it gives me some hope. I've talked with you a bit. I see something in you that is needed in this world.

[Puffyprue]

Well theres nothing in me.

i;ve been living like this far too long, iam just get so tired

[RunningEagleRuns]

I've felt the way you do, alot. But life will get better I tell myself. God loves us even if we don't feel like he does. Good luck friend,

Originally Posted by puffyprue

Well theres nothing in me.

I disagree...hope you don't mind

Originally Posted by puffyprue

i;ve been living like this far too long, iam just get so tired

I know

[Marla500]

I agree with the above, puffy. some day you will be able to help another person the way no one else can because of your experiences. I'm sorry you are hurting

[Puffyprue]

i am sorry but iam just tired, i dont want someday i want it now or this to be over, thats it.

[turquoisesea]

Originally Posted by puffyprue

i am sorry but iam just tired, i dont want someday i want it now or this to be over, thats it.

*wishing I could send you that perfect day right now*

Can you do something special for yourself in the next few days that would make today worth it ? Is there someone you can call? I know it can feel like forever, but that someday is worth it...

[Puffyprue]

Thank you turquoisesea,

i decided to go to the beach and read for a while well if i could calming down
i dont have anyone to call my best friend mad at me i think after last night i tell him i hate him for no reason

i'll be fine i think like i always do

thank you everyone for all support that i dont deserved

[turquoisesea]

(((((Puffyprue))))) glad to hear that =) I like reading outside too... especially at beaches though where I am there's not one nearby.

Maybe you could make up with your frien din the next few days. Telling someone you hate them would hurt them, yes, but if you could muster the strength to talk to the friend and make him understand that you didn't mean it maybe you could repair the relationship.

~Sea

btw... you do deserve support

Originally Posted by puffyprue

Thank you turquoisesea,

i decided to go to the beach and read for a while well if i could calming down
i dont have anyone to call my best friend mad at me i think after last night i tell him i hate him for no reason

i'll be fine i think like i always do

thank you everyone for all support that i dont deserved

[KeepGoing8]

Hope you are feeling better today Prue...I know EXACTLY how you feel. When I was 12, I decided to stop believing in God because I couldn't handle the anger I felt at a God who would allow such horrible things to happen to good people. I still struggle with hope and faith to this day...but I learned to target that anger at god to actual targets, like poverty, child abusers, and men who like to beat up women...and joined movements to combat those very real enemies. Doing good is the best way to fight evil, and you're never gonna be able to change God or God's Plan ( whatever that is), so find something you can change, or someone you can help, and act on that...one step at a time hon

[Puffyprue]

Originally Posted by turquoisesea

(((((Puffyprue))))) glad to hear that =) I like reading outside too... especially at beaches though where I am there's not one nearby.

Maybe you could make up with your frien din the next few days. Telling someone you hate them would hurt them, yes, but if you could muster the strength to talk to the friend and make him understand that you didn't mean it maybe you could repair the relationship.

~Sea

btw... you do deserve support

i went to the beach and it was nice , i lived very close to the beach so i could go whenever i want...lucky me!

i apologized to him, and he not mad at me he understand so we are good , i am glad he still havent gave up on me

[Puffyprue]

Originally Posted by KeepGoing8

Hope you are feeling better today Prue...I know EXACTLY how you feel. When I was 12, I decided to stop believing in God because I couldn't handle the anger I felt at a God who would allow such horrible things to happen to good people. I still struggle with hope and faith to this day...but I learned to target that anger at god to actual targets, like poverty, child abusers, and men who like to beat up women...and joined movements to combat those very real enemies. Doing good is the best way to fight evil, and you're never gonna be able to change God or God's Plan ( whatever that is), so find something you can change, or someone you can help, and act on that...one step at a time hon

thank you, i hope on your hope!
i am proud of you that you could helped other , and i hope someday you will find a peace and all the anger inside of you go away

[depressedsue]

(((((Puffyprue)))))....don't hate God..you're a great person and yes you don't deserve it. I understand its rilly hard to maintain hope to maintain hope when you're feeling like this,but we're all here to help and support.
My favorite is this one by Henry David Thoreau,it usually help me during the rough times..
'If we will be quiet and ready enough,we shall find compensation in every disappointment'

[turquoisesea]

I'm so glad =)