[sunangel803]

I know that's a strange title. I miss having close friends, people I can hang out with, tell anything to, etc. I do have a lot of people I talk to and people that i know who care about me, such as coworkers, but not in a way that really feels connected. I was watching TV earlier and two people were having a heart to heart conversation and I felt myself missing that sort of connection.

I have a family - a husband and a one year old and I love them more than anything. The friends I am closest to (that Ive known for years) all live a distance away and it's difficult to coordinate our schedules. I would love to have a friend or two where we could talk about anything.

I have anxiety and depression, so it's hard for me to make friends now. I used to be very social, but since developing anxiety and depression, I feel like my social skills are rotting away. Conversations feel awkward to me now, like it's an effort to keep one going. I hate that and feel lonely and down on myself. I don't know how to get myself out of this social rut that seems to have developed in my life.

Thanks for reading.

[changemeohyah]

hmmmm I know how you feel, and if I was married my best friend would be my husband if anyone. He should be their helping you get through your anxiety and depression. I guess its different for everyone, but i believe when you are married to someone you are one. meaning when that person hurts you hurts. No one wants to see the person they love go through depression. Not trying to tell you how to run your marrage just what I believe.

[changemeohyah]

hmmmm I know how you feel, and if I was married my best friend would be my husband if anyone. He should be their helping you get through your anxiety and depression. I guess its different for everyone, but i believe when you are married to someone you are one. meaning when that person hurts you hurts. No one wants to see the person they love go through depression.

[changemeohyah]

I know how you feel, but all that you are looking for is in your husband. He is your best friend, your support systems, I thought thats what a mirage is built off of. The oneness and closeness, when you hurt, he hurts. No way you should be feeling like this and you have a husband to build you up. Then again it could be the mirage that got you feeling this way. You really need to sit down and ask yourself why you feel this way and what steps you can take to change it. only you have the power over your thoughts no one else.

[Puffyprue]

you are not alone and its not strange title at all, i miss having friends too, and i think all your friends also miss you

maybe you could try to find an online friend

hugs as much as you need

[sunangel803]

Thank you for your kind words. I hadnt really thought they might miss me too. I tend to value myself so little. I have thought about online friends, which is why I like coming here because people seem to be very supportive and genuinely seem to care.

[eggsinfinitum]

Oh my gosh, most everything you say here could be coming out of my mouth, except for the one year old part- my kids are grown. I'm feeling so much better this year because I'm reconciled to the fact that my journal is the only place I can say what I really want, and it helps tremendously. But I still miss having that person, nothing can replace a person who knows you and accepts what you say no matter how stupid or nasty it is. I never had any problems before meeting people, talking to them, etc, but now i really do. I am a very friendly person, a good listener, but I think I've been hurt by people who I trusted, and I am guarded now, People sense that, I'm sure, so I'm trying to be more open and accepting. Anyway, good luck- i'm new to this site but it seems like a great place to find people who will listen, and to find topics that help us grow. Take care!

Originally Posted by sunangel803

I know that's a strange title. I miss having close friends, people I can hang out with, tell anything to, etc. I do have a lot of people I talk to and people that i know who care about me, such as coworkers, but not in a way that really feels connected. I was watching TV earlier and two people were having a heart to heart conversation and I felt myself missing that sort of connection.

I have a family - a husband and a one year old and I love them more than anything. The friends I am closest to (that Ive known for years) all live a distance away and it's difficult to coordinate our schedules. I would love to have a friend or two where we could talk about anything.

I have anxiety and depression, so it's hard for me to make friends now. I used to be very social, but since developing anxiety and depression, I feel like my social skills are rotting away. Conversations feel awkward to me now, like it's an effort to keep one going. I hate that and feel lonely and down on myself. I don't know how to get myself out of this social rut that seems to have developed in my life.

Thanks for reading.

[ManicDad]

I know all too well how you feel. Except, I can make superficial friends just fine. It's finding someone I can trust with my crazy that's the problem.

I'm sorry you're going through this. I hope you're able to find some new friends soon.

I can relate to much said in this thread, too, although I don’t have a family to be close to, I don’t have coworkers, I really have no one other than Internet friends, or more specifically an Internet friend, and even if I didn’t have anxiety and depression, which I do, I have the obstacle of being so weird and socially awkward in an intolerant society due to having Asperger’s Syndrome.

It’s upsetting and it causes depression for me to be alone all the time.

[sunangel803]

Originally Posted by changemeohyah

hmmmm I know how you feel, and if I was married my best friend would be my husband if anyone. He should be their helping you get through your anxiety and depression. I guess its different for everyone, but i believe when you are married to someone you are one. meaning when that person hurts you hurts. No one wants to see the person they love go through depression.

I think you're right in what you're saying - my husband is my best friend. We are great support for each other because he has depression and anxiety as well. When I was writing the original post, I didn't clarify that I miss the friendships I've had with women I was friends with since middle school and college. Life circumstances have led to us growing apart. I have no ill feelings towards them. They have their own lives and I have mine. I just miss being able to hang out and spend time together. Thanks everyone who responded and for your support. I appreciate it

[sunangel803]

Originally Posted by Mr. Venomous

I can relate to much said in this thread, too, although I don’t have a family to be close to, I don’t have coworkers, I really have no one other than Internet friends, or more specifically an Internet friend, and even if I didn’t have anxiety and depression, which I do, I have the obstacle of being so weird and socially awkward in an intolerant society due to having Asperger’s Syndrome.

It’s upsetting and it causes depression for me to be alone all the time.

Having known several people with Asperger's, I understand there is a lot of isolation that unfortunately comes with it. A lot of people don't understand it and the nature of the disorder makes it difficult to educate others about it. *hugs to you!*

Just a thought...have you ever been to support group for people with Asperger's? One of my coworkers has a son with it and the group he attends has made a world of difference for him. If you're comfortable with the idea, it might be worth checking to see if there's one in your area.