Frustrated

I haven't posted for awhile, but I'm just so frustrated that I don't know where else to go. It's been six months since I attempted suicide, and I've done everything I possibly can to get better. I see a psychiatrist, take the pills he gives me, spill my guts to my therapist, write in my journal, call people when I'm feeling dangerous, blah blah blah. But I don't feel better!!!! How is that possible? Shouldn't I be feeling at least the tiniest bit happier that my attempt failed? I just want to feel better. I know you all understand how that goes. Thanks for the ear (or eyes, I should say).

((( Bella ))) sometimes it takes such a very long time...The plus is you ARE doing all to get well and it will come...it just may take a while longer than you like...Has anything improved?

I guess I can function better than I used to. You know, not having to run out of classes to cry or cut all the time. But it still feels like crap.

Cool ok so youre not having major panic attacks and not cutting like you use to....this is good...shows you have made more progress than you thought when you posted this....It will get better and better but I agree its a looooooooooooooooooooooooooong road...At one time I thought I would never be able to read...again or not think SI thoughts at the sight of something sharp..now its not a thought at all.....took me maybe a year or so to blow it ALL off

Bella -

Sometimes it just takes a long time.

My thoughts and prayers are with you,

EJ

thanks

I am sorry you are still feeling bad but it does sound like there has been some good proprss. Unfortunately it does take some time to heal. I hope that soon you will see more of t he benefits of your hard work. Please be patient with yourself and take care.