Could I be depressed? Should I seek help from a GP?

It's very hard to describe exactly how I'm feeling because there seems to be so much going on in my head. But I haven't felt right for six months or so ever since I had a breakdown due to my ex-girlfriend.

Everything in life seems ridiculous and pointless and I often find myself questioning things everybody takes for granted. It even gets to the point sometimes where i question reality. My brain never stops questioning, I completely over analyse my own and other peoples actions to ridiculous detail. It's torture. I'm never able to relax and am unable to enjoy things that I once enjoyed. I can't pay attention to TV or read a book, I often just have the TV on in the background just to distract myself slightly from the constant buzzing that's going on in my brain. I'm a university student and seem able to get my work done just about, but it doesn't matter to me, nothing seems to matter to me any more. I don't seem to think or feel anything. I just feel like a numb shell. I can get things that need to be done day to day usually but just feel like I'm existing rather than living.

Recently I've been using recreational drugs reasonably reguarly, I've smoked weed 10-20 times and taken mdma 4 times. This is simply because the friendship group I've fallen into do this so I was given the opportunity to try it, especially because of the sort of nights out they go to require you to be wired just to last the entire night. I half want to take the drugs (can't lie the mdma experience is an escape from how I feel day to day, but I don't want to take it again) and half feel uncomfortable with them. I'm scared that my drug use may have made the feelings I described above worse. They were there before I took any drugs but I'm pretty anxious that I might have ****ed myself up even more.

All I want is to feel normal again. Thanks so much for your help.

Taking drugs sure isn't going to help things -- I think you've found that out. If you become addicted, you'll be in DEEP trouble. And when you come 'down' from them, you're in worse shape than before.

To put it mildly, depression sucks. If at all possible, seek help from a therapist. I know what it's like to have those racing thoughts, and the "voices" in your head! It's enough to drive you insane! A good therapist can help you alot. I've been in therapy off and on most of my adult life, and it's done me a world of good. It wasn't just for depression, so you wouldn't have to go as long as I did.

If you can't afford a therapist, at LEAST see the counselor at your school. Every school has counselors, and they'd be happy to talk to you. It's confidential too, so don't worry about that.

I wish you the very best. Take care & keep us posted, please? Hugs, Lee

I've had counselling in the immediate aftermath of my breakdown, it didn't really seem to help. I would feel better for an hour or two after a session, then I'd forget what had been said and I'd feel down again.

I just seem really detached from the world and immersed in my own world of destructive thoughts.

Thanks for your help though mate, really appreciate it

Give therapy another try. It could be that your former therapist wasn't a good match. It could also be that you were just getting use to getting out of your depression. Getting out of hurt takes time and sometimes we can only do it for a few hours at a time. If you go to your GP s/he will likely prescribe anti-depressants or anti-anxiety meds. This isn't necessarily a bad thing. I've found relief from meds but others have different feelings about them.
If you are on medication it is another reason to avoid drugs as you don't want to have possible interactions. It's hard when your social group is really involved in drugs. Try to reach out to others, or even people in the group who are less involved with drugs and would be more likely to do things without being high. Good luck.