[Dontfeellikeme]

Hope you got somewhere whimsy girl xc

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by optimize990h

My best friend was a bird, a 'tiel, who died.

Oh I'm so sorry I have a cat (Riley) who is my best friend in the world. We've been through everything together for the past 17 years, and he has survived cancer, going through both chemo and radiation....cancer free for over 6 years now. The thought of ever losing him makes me unbearably sad......

[whimsygirl]

I am so incredibly blessed to have my wonderful counselor. She can take the messed-up me that walks through the door, and somehow I can leave an hour or so later feeling more at peace. I'm really lucky.....

[regretful]

It appears that things are improving slightly. Maybe it is only because it it Saturday?

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by regretful

It appears that things are improving slightly. Maybe it is only because it it Saturday?

Fingers crossed for you!

[whimsygirl]

Not too bad so far, although a bit on the groggy side. (Woke up around 5am and took something to help get back to sleep.) But the French Roast is ready, and my favorite tennis player is playing in the Semifinals in Cincinnati, so going to watch and ignore depression at least for the next couple of hours.....

[whimsygirl]

How quickly things can change! Hottest weather we've had around here in a long time and my ac system has given out. It's just too old, and to replace it would cost @ $5,0000. Not a possibility. CRAP!!

Originally Posted by whimsygirl

I am so incredibly blessed to have my wonderful counselor. She can take the messed-up me that walks through the door, and somehow I can leave an hour or so later feeling more at peace. I'm really lucky.....

That's great to hear! So few people really ever feel satisfied or helped by their counselors. I'm so glad you can have this experience to heal yourself.

I'm having trouble fighting the guilty confusion and whirlwind that the up cycle leaves behind as the depression takes its place.

Depression - what an ugly word - to depress something is to squeeze something down to deflation.

I am definitely squeezed by some outside force, trapped in this cage of a brain of mine. Unable to focus on important things. Tiresomely working through the thoughts that consume me but have little importance or value in life.

Why is the answer so plain to see and yet so hard to grasp

[Nammu]

Confused and a bit scared, I lost yesterday-usually I have some idea if I sleep though a day, no wonder Sir(my cat) came and got me out of bed this morning. He is not allowed in the bedroom, but today he came and laid on top of me. I'm still having a hard time staying awake.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by sidestepper

Confused and a bit scared, I lost yesterday-usually I have some idea if I sleep though a day, no wonder Sir(my cat) came and got me out of bed this morning. He is not allowed in the bedroom, but today he came and laid on top of me. I'm still having a hard time staying awake.

That sounds kind of scary. Hope you're feeling okay. Sending good thoughts your way..... ps.....Best wishes to Sir also. I've got Riley, Mia, Possum and Whimsy

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by Tru_Butterfly

That's great to hear! So few people really ever feel satisfied or helped by their counselors. I'm so glad you can have this experience to heal yourself.

Hello Butterfly....Thank you so much for these kind words! Honestly, I've not had very good luck at all with therapists I have seen throughout my life (I've been in and out of therapy since I was 19 years old.....and that was quite a while back.) I've spent a lot of time and money on all this, but I always felt disappointed. I had kind of given up on ever finding the kind, wise, caring T's that other people seemed to have, and it's even harder because I live in the boondocks. But finally I managed to find Doreen, and what a difference she is making. Hope you're doing okay.....

[Nammu]

I've been incredibly lucky with T's, only 2 strange ones. One I gave the old college try of 3 strikes and your out, she was just too passive for me. The other one didn't get that, in that first appointment she went on and on about womens rights and hating men, how women had to bind their breast in the '20's and their feet in China.....I'm all for women's equality, but hey this is supposed to be "my" therapy session! That's really a good outcome considering the number of years and the number of cities and states I've lived in.

Pdoc's on the other hand....maybe 50%. I'm very out spoken when it comes to drugs and how they affect my body-I don't care if what I'm feeling is not listed as a side effect in the book, a thing doctors don't seem to care for too much.

((((Side)))) ((((Whim))))

[turquoise4]

I want to say something, but I don't know what to say right now. So "hi" I'm here. I hate feeling isolated and I need to reach out more. My mood has been alright. Just feel like I need to get out of my own head right now.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by sidestepper

I've been incredibly lucky with T's, only 2 strange ones. One I gave the old college try of 3 strikes and your out, she was just too passive for me. The other one didn't get that, in that first appointment she went on and on about womens rights and hating men, how women had to bind their breast in the '20's and their feet in China.....I'm all for women's equality, but hey this is supposed to be "my" therapy session! That's really a good outcome considering the number of years and the number of cities and states I've lived in.

Pdoc's on the other hand....maybe 50%. I'm very out spoken when it comes to drugs and how they affect my body-I don't care if what I'm feeling is not listed as a side effect in the book, a thing doctors don't seem to care for too much.

I'm glad your luck has been fairly good, but I must say that one you describe sounds a bit scary! One thing I've learned (sadly), is that just because you have the credentials required to "help" people.....doesn't necessarily mean you should be.

[whimsygirl]

Feeling, pretty much as usual, like I'll never be able to deal with all the things that need to be done today....discouraging. I tell myself to just focus on one project at a time, but it's frustrating to be sure. Just don't want to end up feeling anxious. Ok....take a breath....one step at a time Hope everyone has a good day.....

[regretful]

Anxious...and I'm not sure why.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by regretful

Anxious...and I'm not sure why.

Hope the anxiety passes.....

[deneane]

Originally Posted by turquoise4

I want to say something, but I don't know what to say right now. So "hi" I'm here. I hate feeling isolated and I need to reach out more. My mood has been alright. Just feel like I need to get out of my own head right now.

i was that way when i first came here after i got in chat i felt better.give it a try it might help you to people give much support.

[jlmass]

Sick to my stomach today. I am hoping its not the zoloft because it has been helping.

[alone in the world]

where has the anxiety and depression gone today? afraid what they will look like when they return

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by jlmass

Sick to my stomach today. I am hoping its not the zoloft because it has been helping.

Hope you feel better asap.....

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by alone in the world

where has the anxiety and depression gone today? afraid what they will look like when they return

Oh alone.....Please try to treasure each and every "better moment" and not worry about the next. And yes, I know it's hard to do, but it's worth a try .....

[konrei]

The feeling of irritation and depression attacked me again. I don't know why but sometimes I just want to sleep, thinking everything is just a dream.