I adore our new VP He is like the mother / brother I always wished for (never had). Having him there makes going to work bearable again. I am not dreading Monday (small yay)

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by Rose Panachée

I adore our new VP He is like the mother / brother I always wished for (never had). Having him there makes going to work bearable again. I am not dreading Monday (small yay)

Oh Rose....Yay indeed!

Originally Posted by whimsygirl

Oh Rose....Yay indeed!

((((Whim)))) thanks, dear! It is a welcome relief

[turquoise4]

Originally Posted by whimsygirl

Feeling, pretty much as usual, like I'll never be able to deal with all the things that need to be done today....discouraging. I tell myself to just focus on one project at a time, but it's frustrating to be sure. Just don't want to end up feeling anxious. Ok....take a breath....one step at a time Hope everyone has a good day.....

I can relate to how you are feeling. One step at a time is the only way to do it. Take care. ((((hugs))))

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by turquoise4

I can relate to how you are feeling. One step at a time is the only way to do it. Take care. ((((hugs))))

And hugs back to you!

[Nammu]

Still feeling very tired, had a scary moment last night when I took a lavender bath(it is so funny Sir{my cat} always comes in and sits on the chair-I think he likes the bath salts and how they smell-he paces back and forth on the rim of the tub before settling on the chair) I had this moment when I wondered if some how I took 2 doses of my pain meds. That could cause me to stop breathing-but I use pill boxes and no extras were missing so that didn't happen.

Instead I had forgotten to take yesterdays am , considering how hard it was to stay awake I think that was a good thing. It's just anxiety, memories, flashbacks and maybe readjustment to my medications since in the hospital they did not give me my medicines as my pain doc prescribed, but lessor pills. Then when I got home I took them as prescribed and I think it was too much right away, my pain went away after a couple of days but I'm feeling the side effects, something that never happened before because my doctor always went up slow. I'll find out when I see my T and pain doc, later this week.

Thanks to PC I feel safe and I can handle it! Thanks to everyone out there who helped!

[regretful]

I am on that spot right between depression and anxiety; that means I think I'm starting to feel better, but it is as if a slight breeze will have me fall into one or the other.

[missbelle]

Life is a bit depressing right now. My adult son is in a crisis center, my younger daughter is in a homeless shelter and a friend is now on hospice. My neighbors are getting worse as far as their mental health(dementia and alzheimers). I live in a senior living apartment.....I feel like taking the two cats and just getting in my car and going to Florida!!

Sad.

I cross that bridge every morning

My heart breaks a little - every time - knowing someone is hurting that much

[jlmass]

Stomach is a little better today so fingers crossed.

[bmega]

Another day with tinnitus and runaway brain....dont want to smile..got nasty broken up teeth. Blah!!

[ExiExi]

Went to see a movie with my cousin and his gf yesterday. Had to fake laughter through the whole thing. When it's a funny movie and everyone is laughing their butts off, you can't just sit there with a poker face. Being on my own makes me suicidal, being involved in social activities makes me anxious, miserable and I always walk home with acute feeling of loneliness and disappointment.
I want to feel pleasure again so I can motivate myself into treatment. Or at least trying to find help. Any help. Maybe I could find someone to talk to, start building my own support system. Sometimes I think drugs and alcohol could kick start my brain. Or kill me.. I'm keeping my options open.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by regretful

I am on that spot right between depression and anxiety; that means I think I'm starting to feel better, but it is as if a slight breeze will have me fall into one or the other.

One moment at a time. I think once you know how bad you can feel there's always that fear you might fall back into the dark hole, so I hope you can treasure each nice moment..... ps....I know, easier said than done, but it's worth a try?

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by ExiExi

Went to see a movie with my cousin and his gf yesterday. Had to fake laughter through the whole thing. When it's a funny movie and everyone is laughing their butts off, you can't just sit there with a poker face. Being on my own makes me suicidal, being involved in social activities makes me anxious, miserable and I always walk home with acute feeling of loneliness and disappointment.
I want to feel pleasure again so I can motivate myself into treatment. Or at least trying to find help. Any help. Maybe I could find someone to talk to, start building my own support system. Sometimes I think drugs and alcohol could kick start my brain. Or kill me.. I'm keeping my options open.

Hello Exi....So sorry you're feeling this way. Been there, done that. I know when my depression is in control it can be really painful to be with people. If I'm not actually breaking out into tears, I know sometimes it shows on my face, and when I feel that way I just want to vanish from wherever I am. Sending warm wishes and hopes that some comfort will come your way as soon as possible..... ps....Not that you want to hear me preach, but drugs and alcohol, not such a good idea

[whimsygirl]

Just grateful not to have a migraine (so far) today.....

[Lost Lamb]

Feeling better today. But still afraid to breath and it could be back to the pit.

[Shadow-world]

The last few hours have been really bad. I was triggered at work by my colleague telling me about his girlfriend being pregnant.
I can't even start describing how much I would like to be pregnant / have been pregnant when it was realistic / feasible.
I had a therapy session in the meantime and feel a bit less that I wish my life was at an end, but I still hurt a lot, have a headache and am totally exhausted.
I need a hug and a reason to be still here, I suppose.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by Shadow-world

The last few hours have been really bad. I was triggered at work by my colleague telling me about his girlfriend being pregnant.
I can't even start describing how much I would like to be pregnant / have been pregnant when it was realistic / feasible.
I had a therapy session in the meantime and feel a bit less that I wish my life was at an end, but I still hurt a lot, have a headache and am totally exhausted.
I need a hug and a reason to be still here, I suppose.

Oh Shadow I am so sorry you're going through all this, and I am sending an infinite number of hugs. I'm here for you, and I want you to be in the world. If at any point you want to PM for any reason I'll be around, and if not then here in the forums, or if you don't want to say anything more, then I'm just sending prayers. More hugs.....

[whimsygirl]

Started crashing a little while ago. Suddenly feeling completely devoid of energy or motivation to do anything, with sadness lurking nearby. Trying to figure out whether to try and do battle with the demon, or just to let it be......so tired.

[optimize990h]

Originally Posted by whimsygirl

Started crashing a little while ago. Suddenly feeling completely devoid of energy or motivation to do anything, with sadness lurking nearby. Trying to figure out whether to try and do battle with the demon, or just to let it be......so tired.

Hope u r doing better. (((( )))s

[Nammu]

Want to run around screaming, "I'm not invisible". Since that will defeat my purpose. I just quietly disparage of ever getting the right help where I am. Slowly like an inner tube in the heat I lose my air and my reason for being.

[Tiger_Lily]

This is my first time posting in the depression forum. I have bipolar, but the depression is the hardest thing for me. Today it's only mild since I talked to my pdoc and he was a big support. I am also more forgiving of my procrastination today since I only slept 3 hours and worked an 8 hour shift. So, OK seems where I am right now, though not great.

[Turtleboy]

feeling amazing today

[whimsygirl]

Exhausted physically, emotionally and spiritually.....

[Sadnlonleytoo]

About the same as yesterday. It might helP if I could get my dr to phone me back