Having a Rough Time and Need support!

My big sis (hermana) was just diagnosed with thyroid cancer the other day and has decided to take a break from writing to me until she's done treatment and is well again which could take MONTHS. I'm having a really hard time because of it. My past experiences with people being diagnosed with cancer is that they DIE. Talking to my counselor about it yesterday didn't do any good and I'm only getting worse last night I felt so alone and still do. NONE of my friends who I usually reach out to for support are available and I can't reach out to my hermana for support which is what I normally do when no one else is available or talking to them doesn't help. Even watching a few minutes of a movie (doesn't matter which movie it is!) makes me worse. It sucks so bad for me right now!

Hi Kaitlyn ~ A diagnosis with cancer does NOT mean a death sentence, please believe me. I was diagnosed with breast cancer and I'm still here. I had surgery and radiation and it's GONE. That was 4 years ago, and there is NO indication that there is ANY cancer left. It's GONE. I'm checked every year and all tests are normal. The strides they have made in cancer treatment are immense so just because you have a diagnosis of cancer does NOT mean you're going to die!

I'm sure your sister is in GOOD hands, and is getting the latest treatment in thyroid cancer. Her chances are excellent -- so please don't give up. Hopefully it was caught early, and the treatment will work.

Just know that we are here for you, and you can lean on us. I know you're been depressed as I've seen your posts before. Keep posting and vent here so we can help you, ok? We'll be here. God bless & take care of YOU. Hugs, Lee

Hey Leed!!!!!! Was hoping you'd be on!

While I'm dealing with all that I'm also dealing with two IDIOTS who are taking what I say and using it against me. Like telling me that:

1) Now that my hermana has cancer I don't mean anything to her anymore

2) She'll (my hermana will) leave me out in the cold if I don't chance soon

3) My hermana has had it with me (meaning she's had enough of me) and can't help me any more and that it's time to move on and find someone new.

4) That I'm just putting a bandaid on this situation (by thinking she's going to be getting well and better and that it's not that bad of a cancer...Thyroid isn't that bad of one and my hermana keeps saying she's going to be well again and she's going to get better)

I've been called selfish and that I'm only thinking of how my hermana's cancer diagnosis is going to affect me. Which isn't true....My hermana and i BOTH just found out her having cancer on Tuesday AFTER she and I talked about getting together in August (which is now most likely NOT going to be happening!). My hermana is a huge part of my life. We talk through email EVERYDAY and occasionally through text messages when I'm having a hard time with things. Life for her has changed drastically as well as life for me too! People don't understand the dynamics of the friendship I have with her....she's my best friend, cousin AND big sister. She's related to me by marriage so she's a part of my family.

I've been in shut down mode since I found out and I even had one friend telling me that I need to get out of the shut down mode NOW and that I should be starting to eat solid foods TODAY (tried that and my stomach cramped up) and the person also told me that I NEED to get protein into my body some how. I've gone 48 hours without eating before AND a week without eating ANY protein before due to it causing my stomach to cramp up. So I know I'm going to be fine just eating veggie baby food, apple sauce and yogurt.

And one of those idiots is now giving me the silent treatment when I need support the most.

Plus I'm afraid that my hermana will either decide not to resume communicating with me after her treatment OR that she doesn't want to communicate with me anymore.