[Bluekat]

This is my first time here. I've had bouts of depression all of my life but now it seems like everything is hitting me at once. I can barely function at home with my kids, my husband doesn't understand & makes it worse & to make it worse I have no insurance for adequate care. I pray constantly just to keep going & I suspect that the Xanax the er doc gave me for my panic disorder is making it worse. I finally got an appt at the free clinic in two weeks but I don't know how I'm gonna make it until then. Some encouragement would be really great right now.

[regretful]

Keep praying and know that there is at least one other person (me) out there who is praying for you. I know what it feels like to have the whole weight of everything hit you at once. That's how I describe my depression - as if I woke up at 45 years of age and realized all that has/is going on at the same time...I manage it the best I can. There are a lot of supportive people on these forums. Two weeks might seem like an eternity, but you'll make it.

Apparently you have children - look at them as the true blessing that they are, then be safe in the knowledge that to them, you are the best mom in the whole world! I hope that this helps.

[whimsygirl]

Hi Bluekat....I'm so sorry about all that you're going through (sounds really tough), but I'm glad you've come here....and thank you for posting. I have a lot of empathy when you mention having no insurance, as it is the same with me. Does make things more difficult, to be sure. It's good to hear that you have an appointment at the clinic set up. Sometimes I have found that just knowing there are possibilities out there helps me make it through bad days. I hope this might be a possibility for you. One moment at a time, and if you possibly can, give yourself credit for every moment you make it through. (I know....that's easier said than done, but it's something to think about, anyway.) Sending warm wishes your way, and I hope you'll keep posting whenever you can use some understanding and support....we know how horrible the feelings can be, and we'll be here for you.....