[Judith G]

Hi,
I am trying to learn my way around this site but it seems complicated to me since my thinking is muddled. There is a lot to read and am going to try to do some of that.

Tonight I am feeling so sad. Can't seems to get past these feelings. It's like nothing will change. Seems like the only time I feel worth anything is if I get out, go shopping, eat out with hubby. But it is hard to motivate myself and then I dread coming back home. We have one car so I haven't got a way during the week unless I drive hubby to work, 20 mi. then back and then pick him up,, expensive. I have isolated myself and stay in bed much of the time. I did wash the dishes today and cooked supper. I felt good about myself for awhile.

For awhile I thought meds were helping but now seems like nothing does.
I want to sleep. But lately it will not come. Don't want to take benzo for sleep very often so I take bendryl. I am prescribed klonipan but take it sparingly.

I have weaned off on pain meds after having disc problems. I take 5 milligrams of loratab only when really necessary. and never took over 10 mil a day for fear of addiction. I take lexapro and a mood stablizer, lamictal 200 ml. time released.

I just needed to write down how I am feeling. Hubby is sleeping beside me. :-) I'm glad I found this group. I hope someone can identify with me.

Thanks for reading and listening.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Judith G!

Originally Posted by Judith G

I am trying to learn my way around this site but it seems complicated to me since my thinking is muddled.

You're not alone. I've had to use Edit Options - "Forums to Exclude from View" (under "Your Profile") in order to pare down PC to something more manageable for me.

Originally Posted by Judith G

It's like nothing will change.

You're no stranger to depression/bipolar. Over the years has anything changed for better or worse?

[whimsygirl]

Welcome Judith.....Thanks for posting, glad you've joined us! Sounds like you've been dealing with a lot, and I hope you will be able to find some comfort here in the forums. Looking forward to hearing anything you feel like sharing in days to come.....

[Blue Poppy]

......... your day sounds like mine. Staying in bed and wanting to sleep in order to shut it all out. I did do the dishes and cleaned the bathroom.
You are not alone in how you are feeling. It is tough to get up and get going when depressed. I try to pick one thing that I will do every day, even if it is menial, in order to have some sort of a routine.
Hang in there.......... you do not need to suffer in silence.