[lady89]

So my depression is at an all time low. I go through episodes every few months. It hits from nowhere. I wake up only wanting to go back to sleep. All I do is lay down and eat all day. This episode seems to be harder than others. I haven't left my house in weeks and I have no desire to. I haven't talked to anyone besides my husband and kids in days. I've cried myself to sleep most nights. I just want it to end. I'm a stay at home Mom so I know my kids recognize when im like this. Poor things are stuck in the house with me and when they ask me to go for a walk it makes me feel worse. I just don't have the energy to get up and do things. And now that my son is started kindergarten in a matter of days I know it's going to be a real challenge for me to get up and do what he needs to be there and have things ready for him. How do you get up and do things you have to do when you are just drained mentally and physically???

[regretful]

It's hard, but I think that one of the ways to get up and do things is to shift the focus from yourself to your kids. You did that in your post (my kids recognize when I'm like this)...Maybe you can reflect on your own Kindergarten experience - if it was positive, think about giving him that same chance; if it was negative, then think about giving him the chance that you didn't have. Just a thought. Also, start with small, achievable goals. Best wishes to you. Oh, and if you're not in therapy or on medication, give either of those options (or both) a try.

[Blue Poppy]

Hello there,

You have mentioned that your depression is recurring. I would encourage you to talk to your doc or a therapist if you have not already done so. It may be that you would benefit from medication or cognitive behavioral therapy.
Depression is great a messing with our thoughts and our feelings. In the midst of an episode, it is very difficult to change how we are thinking or feeling. The only thing that we do have control over is our actions. So, set some small goals to get your child off to kindergarten, the action part of the equation.

[Yoda]

Prepare as much as you can the evening before school. Help your son pick out clothes. Pack a lunch if he won't eat what is on the menu for a particular day. Decide what he will eat for breakfast.

Are you taking an antidepressant now?

[AngelWolf3]

Welcome to PC. Everyone that has posted already has given great suggestions, so I am going to say "ditto" and give you hugs, if that is ok.

For me, what helps, when my kids do something silly/sweet, I try to hold on to how that makes me feel and then when I am really down, I replay that in my head. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. (even videotaped on my fone my daughter doing a goofy 'can't touch this' dance and it cracks me up)

Sending hopeful thoughts your way...

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by lady89

So my depression is at an all time low. I go through episodes every few months. It hits from nowhere. I wake up only wanting to go back to sleep. All I do is lay down and eat all day. This episode seems to be harder than others. I haven't left my house in weeks and I have no desire to. I haven't talked to anyone besides my husband and kids in days. I've cried myself to sleep most nights. I just want it to end. I'm a stay at home Mom so I know my kids recognize when im like this. Poor things are stuck in the house with me and when they ask me to go for a walk it makes me feel worse. I just don't have the energy to get up and do things. And now that my son is started kindergarten in a matter of days I know it's going to be a real challenge for me to get up and do what he needs to be there and have things ready for him. How do you get up and do things you have to do when you are just drained mentally and physically???

One tiny step at a time. Sending warm wishes.....

[lady89]

I am currently taking antidepressants and my doctor increased my dosage a few months ago. I haven't seen a therapist in over a year but it is something I definitely need. I really appreciate everyone's advice and thanks for being so kind. I am just taking it day by day and hoping that things get better soon, not just for my kids but for myself too.