[alone in the world]

I admit i am well connected to MH services in the community but sometimes I think it is to much. my depression makes me want to escape through sleep that is med induce after 3 nights of no sleep and feeling like I could care less I took a cocktail of almost everything I have and slept like a baby. The point is after meeting with a caseworker she noticed my speech was slurred and now she wants to be in touch with everyone else. I believe I know just what is a safe amount to take and know I will wake the next day but everyone else thinks differently. Had to admit to myself I am taking a risk but I can not stop when the world around me is caving in on me. feelinf so sad having to admit that now I am not sure how to proceed. I have no will power. know what my T will say but what scares me if what if they think I am a threat to myself, I have a kid to think about. feeling so confused, lost, unwanted and alone.

[depressedalaskan]

I would say not to take your meds in the doses you want. This can be very unsafe. See if you can get your doctor to work on another medication or uping your dose but please do not do it on your own. The feelings you are having are not uncommon with depression. Depression is trying it's hardest to beat you down. Depression makes us feel unwanted and alone by keeping us isolated or quiet. By keeping us confused and lost depression just gets another edge on us. You see I live with this illness and at this time I can see back what it was doing to me. Depression is very powerful but it is possible to live with it. I am saying this today. Tomorrow is another day. I wish you all the luck in the world.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by alone in the world

I admit i am well connected to MH services in the community but sometimes I think it is to much. my depression makes me want to escape through sleep that is med induce after 3 nights of no sleep and feeling like I could care less I took a cocktail of almost everything I have and slept like a baby. The point is after meeting with a caseworker she noticed my speech was slurred and now she wants to be in touch with everyone else. I believe I know just what is a safe amount to take and know I will wake the next day but everyone else thinks differently. Had to admit to myself I am taking a risk but I can not stop when the world around me is caving in on me. feelinf so sad having to admit that now I am not sure how to proceed. I have no will power. know what my T will say but what scares me if what if they think I am a threat to myself, I have a kid to think about. feeling so confused, lost, unwanted and alone.

Hello alone.....I am so sorry about all you are going through, and what I wish more than anything is that I could give you a huge hug and let you know that you are a precious spirit, no matter what the voices of depression are telling you. I have been in the darkest place I could ever imagine, and I feel so very much for you and where you are. (And I have also had severe sleep problems for the past many months.) Maybe it won't make any difference, but I want you to know that I am out here for you, and will be thinking of you tonight and sending prayers your way. Many warm thoughts ~whimsy ps.....PM me any time if you want.

[Blue Poppy]

Be kind to yourself.............. and prove to your medical team that you are not a threat to yourself, for the sake of your child, who loves you very much.

[alone in the world]

Originally Posted by whimsygirl

Hello alone.....I am so sorry about all you are going through, and what I wish more than anything is that I could give you a huge hug and let you know that you are a precious spirit, no matter what the voices of depression are telling you. I have been in the darkest place I could ever imagine, and I feel so very much for you and where you are. (And I have also had severe sleep problems for the past many months.) Maybe it won't make any difference, but I want you to know that I am out here for you, and will be thinking of you tonight and sending prayers your way. Many warm thoughts ~whimsy ps.....PM me any time if you want.

i might just take u up on that offer