Is there someone I can talk to?

I would love to have someone to talk to, if anyone can?
I've lost loved ones because of getting so disillusioned by my own misery. I have an intense and ongoing feeling of fear/dread. I want to get my life in order and to start to feel happy once more but I keep going back to blaming myself for the situation I'm in now, despite knowing how thinking like this will do me no good whatsoever. I keep having strong and uncontrollable surges of emotion.
I'm taking Prozac, but am only in the second week after starting and I have a therapy session booked in 4 weeks time.

Hi ~ I hope you know that it takes Prozac about 6 weeks to begin working. That's about how long all of them take except Cymbalta, and that takes about 2-3 weeks to begin working. I have no idea why it takes so long, but it does.

So please be patient and DO NOT abruptly stop taking this medication!! If you do, you will have very unpleasant withdrawal symptoms, and some can be very dangerous! So keep taking it.

Hopefully by the time you start your therapy session, the Prozac will begin working! That would be good timing.

I wish you the very best, and if you'd like to talk privately, you're welcome to private message me anytime. I'd be happy to talk to you. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee

i abruptly stoppped taking my medicaionts but they were anti PSYCHOTICS

anti depressants, when u stop the all of a sudden, cold turkey, are like, being wheeled into hell on a bed of nails

No, I have no intention of stopping taking it, I will persevere. I just wondered if there's a way through which I can start to feel better in the mean time?

One way to start feeling better is to open up and discuss your situation in this forum. You mentioned that you lost some loved ones. Is there any chance of reconnecting with them?

I don't think I can. It was my depressive symptoms which drove my boyfriend away in the end, I really don't think there's any chance of that being fixed now.
I don't have many friends any more, I've isolated myself a lot over the past few years. I can't imagine feeling comfortable making new friends and I don't think I can trust anyone.

My parents are having a difficult time as it is, without me piling off my thoughts and emotions onto them too.
I'm wary of talking more about my emotions to a close female friend as I have already been quite upset in her company repeatedly and I don't want to turn into "toxic" company.

Your prozac will start to kick in soon which will make you feel much better. In the meantime, try not to stay so isolated. I know it's hard but it is a really important step to overcoming depression. You didn't say if you see your school counselor yet. If you don't, I recommend it. What activites have you done in the past that you really enjoy? Again, I know it is extemely hard, but believe it or not you will start to feel better when you engage in some kind of hobby/activity or start socializing.

there are ways, yes..you have to stay open-minded tho.

try healthy distractions and things that are nurturing and comforting to u.

view your depressed self as a child, and take care of it, tell them you love them and are here for them, and that it is okay to be sad and that they are safe with you. feed them when they hungry, give them, water when their mouth is dry, tell them that this episode is temporary and yes, that they did feel differently before.

Having been by myself for a few days, I will be going to stay with a friend for a few days tomorrow, hopefully that will help- must make sure I stay positive though!
Maybe I will join the tennis club at uni. I used to play a lot of music but have lost motivation to do that and am really out of practice now.
I used to love horse-riding, but now I'm a student and need to support myself financially, so unfortunately it's out of the question.

Starting meds is a tumultuous time. So is any time you need to change the dose, drug, or combination. It's frustrating because you want them to work right away. Even though your rational side knows it takes time, the rest of you doesn't get the message. Keep reminding yourself that there is hope. PM me and I'll remind you that there is hope if you need/want to.

I've lost relationships too because of my depression and mood issues. It's hard, very hard. There are guys/girls our there that can handle "the crazy" as I call it, the times when I can't get a handle on my emotions. It's usually not so much about you driving them away, as them not being able to handle their own emotions. Guys especially like to fix things and they get frustrated when they can't. They feel like they've failed you which doesn't make them feel good. All those feelings put a strain on a relationship. And sometimes they're just jerks. You may not have been the perfect partner but it takes two to tango. As a friend of mine told me once, you have to kiss a lot of toads but eventually you find a prince. Don't get me wrong, it sucks in the mean time, but it's not hopeless.

With depression, motivation is gone . . . to fight against it you have to do something you used to like doing even if you don't feel like it. Play music for 30 minutes. . . 5 even if that's all you can do. Play something easy and upbeat, even "Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star" will do. As you're playing take note of how that moment feels not the whole day, not the last hour, just the time it takes to play one bar. If it feels good, try to remember that, right it down if you have to so you remember next time.

junkDNA's suggestion of nurturing a child is a good one. I was hospitalized and this is exactly what one of the nurses told me. He said that imagine I was 11 years old, would I be talking to this child the way I'm talking to myself now? We are much kinder to others than we are to ourselves. Try and give yourself a break.

PM me anytime. I have two good ears. . . er. . .eyes for 'listening'

I don't mean to depress you further but I thought it would help to know that I am in the same boat. I don't really have any one but family and they have their own lives. The meds help me a lot. When I meditate it helps me further. Depression sucks. I wish you well.

I'm glad you are going to stay with a friend for a few days! Socializing is very important to dealing with depression. If you enjoyed music you might want to try to start up again just to see. Maybe you can rekindle your love for music. Hobbies or pastimes that you really enjoy are also invaluable.

Hey Chuckleberry, let us know how you're doing. Did you find some distractions?