[veryconfuse]

hi,
Everyday is getting worse. I didn't think it's possible but i feel like I'm growing sadder n sadder. I have so many problems, I'm not sure where to start. I cry all the time, not exactly sure why. I cried at night, on the bus, on the train. It could happen any minute and it's very hard to control it. I haven't been sleeping well and I'm extremely exhausted. I feel like walking zombie. I'm not hungry anymore but I still force myself to eat because I know how hard it is eat again after not eating for so long. I been getting headache that hurts so bad that leaves me no choice but to take up to the maximum number if tylenol each day. It's grower harder to control my negative thoughts. I tried to focus on homework and other things but somehow the negative comes fighting back. I'm not sure what to do anymore.

[Leed]

Hi and I'm so sorry you're feeling so badly. You talk about homework, so you must be iin high school correct?

YOu NEED to talk to your parents. This is a MUST. They have GOT to take you to your medical doctor and soon. You need a medicall exam to make sure there is nothing else going on, and then to put you on medication OR to send you to a therapist, which would be the BEST idea. You really need to talk to someone about your problems.

So please ask your parents to take you to your doctor. He/she can help you. DON'T be afraid to talk to your parents! They love you and want whats best for you. Show them your post here if you need to. But get the help you need. God bless honey, and take care. Hugs, Lee

[veryconfuse]

Hi Lee,
I'm in college (first year). I cannot talk to my parents nor want to talk to them about it. I'm trying to keep my problems private they would make fun of me for it and it would lead to many of my well kept secrets. They are not good at understeading. I just began seeing counselor in school a few week ago. I do not think my counselor is really helping but I go anyways because I don't have any better ideas.

[Leed]

Is there more than ONE counselor at the school? Can you possibly see the other if there is? I can't believe they'd only have one. It might be sticky changing to another, but if your mental health is at stake, I'd do it.

Can you check at the local Social Services in that city and see about their Mental Health Services and what they have to offer? They might have some counselors you can see. Check with them and see what you can find out.

I wish you the best. I know it's difficult when you want to keep things private. Parents want to know EVERYTHING. Good grief. God bless and keep posting. Hugs, Lee

[veryconfuse]

thanks for the advices. I will look into it.

[Kingsley85]

Keeping my problems private didn't work for me and in part led to my first suicide attempt. It's very important that you find a good therapist. If there isn't a good one at school try to explore other options and look into seeing a psychaitrist. Make sure to talk to your therapist about the problems you have with talking to your parents. Sometimes therapists can educate people who are ignorant of mental illness. Maybe your therapist could have a family meeting with you to educate your parents and to show them that how your are feeling is a serious situation not to be made fun of. Just a suggestion, but I know some people have done these family meetings with spouses or parents and it's helped a lot.

[veryconfuse]

Originally Posted by Kingsley85

Keeping my problems private didn't work for me and in part led to my first suicide attempt. It's very important that you find a good therapist. If there isn't a good one at school try to explore other options and look into seeing a psychaitrist. Make sure to talk to your therapist about the problems you have with talking to your parents. Sometimes therapists can educate people who are ignorant of mental illness. Maybe your therapist could have a family meeting with you to educate your parents and to show them that how your are feeling is a serious situation not to be made fun of. Just a suggestion, but I know some people have done these family meetings with spouses or parents and it's helped a lot.

thanks kingsley for replying to both my threads. ( it was an accident ) I like to
keep things private because they Save me from suicide attempts.

[Kingsley85]

I have suicidal thoughts everyday, it's really helpful to have outside support. I'm so sorry that it sounds like you arnt getting the support you need. My family only found out I had a problem after I couldn't take it anymore. I think it was upsetting for them to get a call from the hospital saying I tried to kill myself and that I had been admitted. But I know what works for me might not work for you. I just want you to know that it doesn't always have to be a secret. For me talking about it a lot has helped release me from the power of my suicidal thoughts and urges. But whatever you decide to do I think you are doing a great job. You know what symptoms you have and you know what you would like to change. And you are posting here getting help and support and you are getting help elsewhere. Those are huge steps, you are miles ahead of me when I was dealing with my first major depressive episode in high school. I wish I could give you a pat on the back. I know you must not feel great but you really are doing a good job from what I hear you saying. You must be a strong person, perhaps stronger than you realize, to be able to get through all this from day to day.

[veryconfuse]

thank you, I just need someway to fight off the suicidal thoughts off and I'm trying my best.

[Kingsley85]

There is a book called "when going through hell don't stop" it's about how to deal with clinical depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts one day at a time. It's supposed to give you real practical solutions to dealing with all those things. I've had two therapists reccomend it to me. I finally bought a used copy online and I'm about to start reading it. Maybe this would help? If you have a library close by they might be able to get it for you, most librarians are actually really cool when it comes to finding these kind of books.

[veryconfuse]

thanks, i will check it out.