[wi_fighter]

You would think I'd know what this means, but I don't.

I'm fed up with work. I'm sick of being their go-to person and getting stuck with the s.h.i.t. jobs. I'm sick of no cost of living raises and having to work harder every passing week to make ends meet. Basic living expenses go up. Why can't my company give us a little raise every year to offset that?

I'm so far behind in work right now and I don't even care. I actually slow down when it gets like this instead of kicking in to high gear, and I don't know why. All it does is make things worse.

[cherybery]

((((((((((((((((((wifighter))))))))))))))))))
I had too cut way back in my work and I am paying for it now but I too would thrive on the more stressful busy times. It kept me from thinking too much at work.
HUGS
Cher

[Sabrina]

I understand so well. The only difference is that I work with (for) my husband. I could not even pay myself my salary this month because of cash flow issues.

And the worse I feel, the less I do. And the less seem to care.

I spent today moping around in slippers and avoiding my office in general despite having tax returns deadlines to meet.

It is all very frustrating, yet I would still not go back to my career right now.

I think you are probably also still landing on your feet Shirley, you have had much to deal with the last couple of weeks.

Hang in there!

[wi_fighter]

I've done an hour and a half of work in the last 6 hours. I have 8 hours hours of work to go. You don't have to be a math wizard to figure out I'm not going to hit goal, especially with kids coming home in two hours.

I've been playing card games and anything else I can come up with to avoid working.

[Sabrina]

Oh dear! I have nothing constructive to say that might help you for I go through and do the very same thing myself.

I really am not much help here, but I really do understand.

Once or twice I have banished myself from my office for an entire day ... it helped for a few hours.

[wi_fighter]

I just don't understand why I self sabotage the one thing that I most like to control - my finances.

I'm so tired right now that I can barely keep my eyes open, but if I quit working to rest, I might never get back to working, not that I'm getting much done to begin with, but still.

[Twisted_Soul]

Wi>>> Breathe in kiddo. I understand being so far behind and feeling so overwhelmed.
Can you try and prioratize tasks to help get things done with what is most needed at the top of the pile?

[wi_fighter]

There is no pile, just a stream of sound files that come in three at a time and they have to be done in the order they download.

I'm at the 400 line mark 6-1/2 hours into my work day. I need 1400 more. Those 400 should have been done in 90 minutes or less, and the next 1400 in six hours.

[Sabrina]

I hate to say what I am about to say ....... but I have sensed (perhaps incorrectly) ..... and that is that you are bored. But that is just my little feeling.

There seems to be so much math (hours calculculated to income etc) involved in your work that, to me, it is robbing you of actually enjoying the work.

Remembering the throat clearing etc comments of before, I am starting to feel that you need something much more stimulating!!!

Wave me aside if I am out of line.

[wi_fighter]

You've got that right Sabrina. I'm constantly worried if I'm getting enough work done that I can't just do the work.

Now I have to get my daughter and tell her that I have a full days' work to get done yet. I hate that more than anything - telling the kids how much I failed every day.

[Sabrina]

OMG - all I can do right now is offer a (((((hug))))) - coz my son often has to share my office space and my not so full on attention when I am behind on my work, and the time should be for his homework.

You have not failed though. I know I should "practice what I preach", I just don't believe you have failed. You have had a set-back but you are not failing.

I will mail you soon ...

S

How does a project get to be a year behind schedule? One day at a time.

The Procrastinator's Creed:

1. I believe that if anything is worth doing, it would have been done already.

2. I shall never move quickly, except to avoid more work or find excuses.

3. I will never rush into a job without a lifetime of consideration.

4. I shall meet all of my deadlines directly in proportion to the amount of bodily injury I could expect to receive from missing them.

5. I firmly believe that tomorrow holds the possibility for new technologies, astounding discoveries, and a reprieve from my obligations.

6. I truly believe that all deadlines are unreasonable regardless of the amount of time given.

7. I shall never forget that the probability of a miracle, though infinitesmally small, is not exactly zero.

8. If at first I don't succeed, there is always next year.

9. I shall always decide not to decide, unless of course I decide to change my mind.

10. I shall always begin, start, initiate, take the first step, and/or write the first word, when I get around to it.

11. I obey the law of inverse excuses which demands that the greater the task to be done, the more insignificant the work that must be done prior to beginning the greater task.

12. I know that the work cycle is not plan/start/finish, but is wait/plan/plan.

13. I will never put off until tomorrow, what I can forget about forever.

14. I will become a member of the ancient Order of Two-Headed Turtles (the Procrastinator's Society) if they ever get it organized.

source unknown -

[(JD)]

Depression does this. WI you have just come through a very stressful event, and often depression deepens at this time. Give yourself some slack, tell yourself you'll be okay and that you're doing the best you can right now.

Keep plodding along, but try and change the mental message you are giving yourself. Give yourself permission to go slower. In fact, why not adjust your schedule, and plan some time when all you do IS play a card game? Not feeling guilty over needing a distraction will help you accomplish more, imo. TC

[wi_fighter]

You'd think it would be the opposite - once the stress goes away, you feel better. It feels more like the stress was keeping me from feeling the yuck.

Another thing I had to do was halve my meds because I forgot to fill the Rx when I was in town Sunday and I only had 4 pills left. I've been cutting them in half for several days because I don't know if I'll get in to town before the weekend. They run out a week before my 1st VA Clinic visit, so I'll have to spend $95 at a private pharmacy instead of $8 through them.


I've been with this transcription company for 4-1/2 years, and I've only asked for a rate increase once in all that time 3-1/2 years ago. I'm afraid to ask for another one, but the stress of working harder and harder just to cover rising food and gas and clothes prices is getting to be too much.

ask for an increase. you're a good worker and you put up with people who chew gum, mumble and suck on hard candy.......

[wi_fighter]

Well, we all do, and I haven't been that hard of a worker lately because I'm getting burned out......from trying to work harder and faster and not succeeding.

[LMo]

I know for a fact that a pharmacy will sell you a few pills in the meantime if you are between prescriptions and you've filled the same prescription with them in the past. At least mine did, twice.

[wi_fighter]

I'll just pay full price. I factored it in to the budget. I'm soooooo SICK of that word. I should have checked out drugstore.com earlier. It's quite a bit cheaper than Target, even with paying shipping. Thirty, 20 mg tabs are on sale for $75 at the moment, but it takes at least 10 days to get your first refill with them.

It's so damn blah today. It's 41 degrees and we have a severe wind and rain advisory. They're even predicting 1-3 inches of snow a little north of us.

And now that T closed my case since I'm starting care at the VA next week, I've realized there are some things I need to talk about.

I never put the fact that my mom disappeared for two mental in-patient stays before I was 8 together with how I freak out when people disappear on me with no warning or explanation, or make changes that directly affect my situation without even consulting me first.