[Gypsyblurose]

I honestly couldn't care less if I died today, some might say, "oh we always feel that way sometimes".
But its not like that. I really don't care anymore.

I have chronic pain and no money for treatment or surgery. So how to people survive?
Mental health issues runs through my family, yet I've never had issues until a year after
The chronic pain set in. The only treatment is surgery which I can't payfor plus I have been
Told that surgery is to stop further nerve damage but will not take away the pain I have.

So what's the point of living like this for the rest of my live?

I just wanted you to know that someone had read your post and heard you. I wish I could think of something to say to help you. I'm guessing you have no insurance. Is there no public hospital/healthcare provider in your area?

[Emotionally Dead]

I feel your pain, although I can't relate to what you are going through. I have the same feelings, but mine are emotional pains and scars, not physical.

You have to see the good in life. It is hard, but is the alternative any better? We are here to live our life, and we only get one chance to live this life. I know, it sucks. Life is filled with more stress and pain than joy, but when we allow ourselves to feel that joy it is an amazing thing. I don't know what happens to us when we die, I think I do, but none of us really know. Isn't it better to live our full lives, that we were meant to live, before finding out what waits for us after this?

Things can change rapidly. Look at how many people go on the news not able to afford medical treatment and millions of viewers donate to them. Miracles do happen, and can happen to you if you are open to it and allow it to happen. Don't give up now, it's not worth it.

[Snowy83]

I'm sorry to hear you are suffering pain and I can't relate to how you feel. Isn't there some charity groups that can help people with financial difficulties? Try to look it up, I'm sure the government at your place have some policies to protect and help people like you. There are others who also suffer from illness and lack of money to get better, so there must be some ways to help you guys. I know this is very hard, but try to transfer that pain into something positive, it reminds you that you are still alive and have a chance to live better. And try watching some inspiration documentary or stories, how people with illness get over their difficulties and live a life with a new perspective, yes you may feel no motivation to watch those right now, but when you feel better some days in the future, watch it, it will encourage you and notice that there are other people have more worse situation than you but still able to come out of it.

[Leed]

Snowy has some good suggestions. I lived like youre living for a long time! The paiin was awful and there was no one to help and no WAY to help.

You won't believe this but it too 26 years before I got relief. I'm sure it won't be the same for you, cause mine was a weird case, and how I hung on that long is beyond me. There were time I wanted to jump off a highway overpass iinto the traffic.

I've been depressed since I was a small child too, so that certainly didn't help. The depression was awful, and my family didn't understand it OR the chronic pain.

This year I finally got help for the pain. I'd already had 2 surgeries that had made things worse. Remember that surgery will NOT fix the pain. It only fixes mechanical problems, and you'll almost always till have pain.

I Hope you find some government assistance for you as there ARE all kinds of assistance out there that we just don't know about. Plus there are Charities too that help people who need it, so look for those too! God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee

Originally Posted by Emotionally Dead

I feel your pain, although I can't relate to what you are going through. I have the same feelings, but mine are emotional pains and scars, not physical.

You have to see the good in life. It is hard, but is the alternative any better? We are here to live our life, and we only get one chance to live this life. I know, it sucks. Life is filled with more stress and pain than joy, but when we allow ourselves to feel that joy it is an amazing thing. I don't know what happens to us when we die, I think I do, but none of us really know. Isn't it better to live our full lives, that we were meant to live, before finding out what waits for us after this?

Things can change rapidly. Look at how many people go on the news not able to afford medical treatment and millions of viewers donate to them. Miracles do happen, and can happen to you if you are open to it and allow it to happen. Don't give up now, it's not worth it.

what an inspirational post!.

i just wish it was true for me.... i can't see any good myself- not anymore

[Gypsyblurose]

Thanks for all the suggestions, I just feel so stuck. I try to move onto
Better things and ways, but the depression and anixity comes on. My heart feel
Lke it will explode. Then after it calms down I can't stay awake,I fall asleep sitting up, or laying down.
Its very intense. Has anyone experienced this?
Gypsy

[Emotionally Dead]

Originally Posted by Gypsyblurose

Thanks for all the suggestions, I just feel so stuck. I try to move onto
Better things and ways, but the depression and anixity comes on. My heart feel
Lke it will explode. Then after it calms down I can't stay awake,I fall asleep sitting up, or laying down.
Its very intense. Has anyone experienced this?
Gypsy

I have experienced this. I believe it can be contributed to stress. Our emotions get high, causing our heart race and pulse to skyrocket. Then once our heartrate subsides, it causes us to be exhausted and feel very sleepy. Similar to how we become tired after crying. Our body has to work hard to pump all the blood when we are stressed, which is why it is so bad to get stressed out. Your best option is to sleep and just let your mind drift for a while to wake up rejuvenated.

[Irine]

I think it is possible to looks for any programs of extra money that are out there to help those who are suffering and can`t afford. There are funds and the such. It may look in the sky - but i don`t think there is zero amount of help out there... Keep looking for it... i am sure you will find.

[Gypsyblurose]

Hi. My anixity or how ever its spelled, stems from pain. When the pain comes on and I can't seem to get it under control I panic.
The pain is extreme and it feels as if someone is takking an ice pick to my tailbone. It won't
Stop, that is when I have a panic attack. During this time I feel I have to end my life for it to stop.
Of course I've never even attempted that, nor do I really wish to, but in that time
The pain I have seems endless.

I hate chronic pain and how much it has destroyed my life.. I just
Want it to go away.