just so so sad.

I'm so overwhelmingly sad. I don't know What to do any more. I feel like I've just given up.it's so horrible I wish I knew how to get my life back and be happy again. I'm like a living zombie.

What makes you so sad?
Elaborate, it will be more helpful for you!

I don't even know why, I have depression but have no reason to be sad other than to blame my brain. Everyone says What have you got to be sad about? My family say they find it insulting I can be depressed with all they do and give to me. I just don't know why which makes it worse because I get mad at myself.

I know exactly how you feel. I feel the same way. Unlike you, however, I know why I am so sad. I think that is probably a big key - why are you unhappy? While there isn't always a reason necessarily for being depressed, often times there IS something. I am not sure what it could be as you didn't provide a ton of information, but I would ask myself if I were you what you think is making you so unhappy. Next would be to work on that.

Now, I wouldn't feel bad for being depressed even though everyone around you thinks you have a good life. Your parents are good to you you say, but at the same time the fact that they get insulted that you are depressed isn't very helpful. They should be finding the cause and trying to help fix it, not blaming you because they give you a lot.

Depression is a mental thing often times. Do you have a Therapist? That would be a start. Though depression is often times stemmed from something, it can certainly form out of nothing. Depression is an entity all on it's own, and we can't always find a reason for it. Some of us just have brain waves that have us get upset over everything instead of "looking on the bright side". So while others don't understand, I know that it is very possible to simply be depressed. Especially at a young age, as it seems you are. It's a part of life, sadly. Though I do also know that parents can provide anything for you physically, if they aren't emotionally there for you it's a problem. I am not saying that is the case in this particular situation, I am just saying no one should judge you without knowing the whole story.

Other than that all I can do is offer my support. I hope that things start looking up for you soon, take care of yourself.

Firstly, your parents doesn't have to blame you for your depression.
Depression is a disease.
If you are sad and you don't know why, it is a sign of depression. What I can say to you is to consult.
You can do something that gives you some pleasure, think of what you like to do and maybe it will help. I wish you the best!

Thank you. I stopped seeing my psychiatrist and cpn back in may when they thought I was all better. I need to get back in touch again to tell them it's back ad get help again. They said it was a chemical imbalance that caused it as there was no reason. That just makes me feel defect.

Jess, if they said it was a "chemical imbalance" then you're clinically depressed and NEED AN ANTIDEPRESSANT. I'm also clinically depressed, and that means I have to be on an antidepressant for the rest of my life. The chemicals and hormones in the brain aren't adequate so we have to take meds to supplement them --- otherwise we'll be depressed forever. If we don't take the meds, the depression will NEVER go away even if you go thru therapy. That's the same with me. I went thru years of therapy, and while it helped, I was still in the pits of despair. So my therapist told me to go to my doctor and get put on medication.

So I've been on meds now for years. And it makes a WORLD OF DIFFERENCE. I feel almost "normal" whatever that is. LOL But really I feel great! You need to get on meds too so you don't feel so awful. Talk to your doctor and get on meds honey. Believe me, you'll be glad you did. Promise you'll talk to him? God bless & let me know what happens. Hugs, Lee

Chemical imbalance THEORY has never been proved to be a fact though. You are not defect.

and by the bit you wrote about your family... eh, it reeks of emotional manipulation... so maybe there IS a reason after all.

what do you want from life? And how could you get it? There usually is a way.

I have many a rough patch with my parents. They treat me differently. I ruined mums life she told me. She was 16 and smart and had the world at her feet, then I ruined it all. She's 33 and never had a job, lost her friends, stays at home everyday while my dad works. I think she resents me. But I don't think she realises the way she is.

My depression is the reason I dropped out of 6th form college. I feel like I'm losing my friends too. I have an amazing job I a so lucky to have which totally turned it around, but I sometimes feel as if I've made the wrong choices when my parents hate the choices I have made and want me back in education even though the job I have most people could of gone to uni to get a job in publishing.

They tell me I just use it as an excuse for everything. Which is contradictory as they didn't know I had depression until they were called to a&e in October 2011.

I don't think they initially caused it as such, I know they have made it worse. And made me feel worse because over their reactions and What they say. Sometimes I think that I hate them, because they don't even try to understand they think they know, and make it worse.

I don't know why it's come back. I was took off of my depression healthcare, my meds my cbt... it's out of nowhere and it seems the same. I don't want it to interfere as I've not had it at my new job and now it's back I always am terrible and will be rubbish they'll sack me for being a zombie.

I'm happy, or at least I thought I was, but always sad at the same time. Like constantly in the background. I still don't know how.

To top it all off I've had an allergic reaction to some new shampoo which has never happened before and my whole head is like an open wound sore and weeping. And my sister has given me a cold. I just want to cry. I'm living at home, me and my boyfriend are saving up for a mortgage he's 21 soon so wants to get ready to go, I just want ought asap, wish either that or they'd ignore me. I let depression control my life and now I'm never going to go to university, never going to local in the city and be that top business woman I dreamed of, I'm never going to do What I wanted because I let it tell Ms I couldnt.

I'm just overwhelmed I want the depression to go. It wasn't welcome 2 years ago and still not now.
I wish people would stop looking down their noses at me and acting like I'm nothing and don't matter. I just want to feel like I'm cared about.

Basically it's back and I am realizing it controls me too much and I've let it ruin my life, just like I ruined mums. I hate to think she feels that way about me.

you didn't ruin her life.... she ruined her life. Don't let her ruin yours.

will get back to you later.

No wonder you struggle. You probably didn't have the chance to develop healthy self-esteem and interpersonal skills in that environment!

do you feel haunted by what your parents tell you? THey probably aren't even RIGHT... and you do the choices for you, not them. You need to live for yourself.

You have great job... appreciate it. If you don't want to go back on education, don't.

well, tbh, we tend to do that. Use it as excuse, when we are in reality just scared of making choices.

maybe time to redefine what you think "happy" is. You can live quite at peace with depression.

You CAN. Plenty of what YOu want. and who cares you will not do what your mother wants?

I think you should attempt at some therapy. with this background... don't let anybody dismiss your feelings as mere chemical imbalance. It's not. You been hurt. and you deserve better.