What is a happy LIFE will the cycle ever end

I've suffered with depression for 21 years.This last year I was depression free.My son who has lived with my mom for most of his life has moved home with me.He'll be 13.He is always in trouble and I know he needs to ajust,the last couple of weeks I feel like I'm a terrible mother,I find myself asking where I went wrong.He is now in counseling also.My depression keeps getting worse.I don't want his life to go like mine has.He acts just like I did growing up there is a fear that he will have BPD like myself.It seems like everyday he's done something else to get in trouble.I know he thinks that I don't love him and I express it to him that I do.I just feel like the depression is slipping back in and it's not something I want back in my life,and it feels like it has control over me again.I don't want his life to be unhappy because mine is messed up.Sorry for rambling on,I guess I just needed to get it out of my mind. <font color="purple"> </font>

((((((( HUGS ))))))) - and YES, the crazy cycle will end.... after you do the healing, talking and waiting that needs to be done (with poss the right medicine).... personally for me, my own HEALING came in and around about the 25th year of dealing with it all (and about 10 years after I got serious about getting better).

Getting down and dirty with intense Psychotherapy can and will produce results.... even if it is 6 straight years of your life, 2-3 times a week - with another 3 years off and on - lol.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -