[doggiedo]

I feel like I should apologize for posting again..I feel like they are the same things over and over again.

My ex bf is my best friend. I have started to date a new guy and I am falling for him big time. My ex can't take it anymore so he tells me that I'm we,disbanding should start going to my new bf to talk about things and about my issues, I don't want to scare in away. There are so many questions about this new guy and I'm trying to take things slow and I don't wanna share too much too soon. My ex feels like I'm not being honest with the new guy in sharing all my anxieties and that I suffer from depression. My ex has basically said I'm selfish for thinking he would still stay my friend while I date other people.

My grandmother is also dying I think. My mom gave me the call today and said I should go visit my Nana sooner than I had planned on -I was gonna go Halloween weekend as it takes me 3hrs to get there. Now she is declining quicker than we realized.

I live away from my family. My brother doesn't talk to my parents or me. I called him tonight to see if he knew about my grandmother, but he isn't answering my calls.

I feel so overwhelmed. Idk what to do, I have no one. I mean my mom is all upset about my gram. I don't have too many friends around here to rely on either.

Dd I mention how much I like this guy? I'm afraid I might be too much for him. Idk. I see my counselor on Thursday. Although I was thinking of canceling to go to a work event to support a co-workers in a workshop he is presenting in the evening, so I would miss my counselor appt.

Idk what to do. I can't make any decisions on my own. I feel like there is this big wave coming over me and I don't even know how to get a grasp of it. This isn't how things are supposed to be.

[perseverance11]

Originally Posted by doggiedo

I feel like I should apologize for posting again..I feel like they are the same things over and over again.

My ex bf is my best friend. I have started to date a new guy and I am falling for him big time. My ex can't take it anymore so he tells me that I'm we,disbanding should start going to my new bf to talk about things and about my issues, I don't want to scare in away. There are so many questions about this new guy and I'm trying to take things slow and I don't wanna share too much too soon. My ex feels like I'm not being honest with the new guy in sharing all my anxieties and that I suffer from depression. My ex has basically said I'm selfish for thinking he would still stay my friend while I date other people.

My grandmother is also dying I think. My mom gave me the call today and said I should go visit my Nana sooner than I had planned on -I was gonna go Halloween weekend as it takes me 3hrs to get there. Now she is declining quicker than we realized.

I live away from my family. My brother doesn't talk to my parents or me. I called him tonight to see if he knew about my grandmother, but he isn't answering my calls.

I feel so overwhelmed. Idk what to do, I have no one. I mean my mom is all upset about my gram. I don't have too many friends around here to rely on either.

Dd I mention how much I like this guy? I'm afraid I might be too much for him. Idk. I see my counselor on Thursday. Although I was thinking of canceling to go to a work event to support a co-workers in a workshop he is presenting in the evening, so I would miss my counselor appt.

Idk what to do. I can't make any decisions on my own. I feel like there is this big wave coming over me and I don't even know how to get a grasp of it. This isn't how things are supposed to be.

Hello doggiedo,

I think that your ex is not right by telling you these things because you have met someone new in your life. In my opnion, it is good the fact that you tell him about your issues and your depression. He will know you more and might be able to help you. I am sorry to hear that your grandmother is dying. Had you a good relationship with her? It is a good idea to go to your appointment thursday because you don't seem to feel good.

You said that you didn't have much people who you can talk about that. Just to tell you that if you want to talk more about it privately, feel free to message me, I will listen carrefully and try the best as I can to help you.

I wish you the best and have a nice evening!

[doggiedo]

Thanks. Yes, I am very close to her. I would go and stay with her for the weekend and she has always considered me her closest grandchild. She taught me how to sew, how to knit, and garden. She is very special to me. I'm going to try and take a day off from work this week and go up and see her.

Yes, my ex is being very mean. He is saying I'm selfish that I won't let him go and heal on his own. The selfish thing is what kills me. It just hurts so bad. I don't think I am selfish. Maybe I am...maybe I am a horrible person. He makes me feel like I'm such a basket case that no other guy will put up with me and my issues. It just hurts so bad. Especially now that I feel like I need someone to talk to about my gram. I just don't understand how HE can be so selfish.

Thank you for offering for me to PM you..I might just do that. Idk.

[perseverance11]

Originally Posted by doggiedo

Thanks. Yes, I am very close to her. I would go and stay with her for the weekend and she has always considered me her closest grandchild. She taught me how to sew, how to knit, and garden. She is very special to me. I'm going to try and take a day off from work this week and go up and see her.

Yes, my ex is being very mean. He is saying I'm selfish that I won't let him go and heal on his own. The selfish thing is what kills me. It just hurts so bad. I don't think I am selfish. Maybe I am...maybe I am a horrible person. He makes me feel like I'm such a basket case that no other guy will put up with me and my issues. It just hurts so bad. Especially now that I feel like I need someone to talk to about my gram. I just don't understand how HE can be so selfish.

Thank you for offering for me to PM you..I might just do that. Idk.

Good idea to see your grandmother!
I don't think you are selfish and that you are a horrible person. I think that this is good for your to meet new people and you have the right to.

You have also the right to receive help in your issues.

You are welcome!

[Leed]

Hi ! Personally, I think you should STOP talking to your ex -- he's not doing you one lick of good. He's interfering with your new relationship for some reason. Whatever it is, it's not good.

I say go to your therapy session instead of the "party." And stay with your grandmother this weekend. You need therapy more than you do some party for someone, and your grandmother needs you this weekend. You may not get much more time with her, and you'll regret it if you don't see her soon.

And as for spilling your guts to your new bf -- play it by ear. You don't need to tell him everything all at once, right at the beginning. Wait until you know what his feeling are DEFINITELY -- and then tell him perhaps a little at a time. You be the judge at how much he can take all at once. I wish you the best of luck. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee

[samysteav]

Originally Posted by doggiedo

I feel like I should apologize for posting again..I feel like they are the same things over and over again.

My ex bf is my best friend. I have started to date a new guy and I am falling for him big time. My ex can't take it anymore so he tells me that I'm we,disbanding should start going to my new bf to talk about things and about my issues, I don't want to scare in away. There are so many questions about this new guy and I'm trying to take things slow and I don't wanna share too much too soon. My ex feels like I'm not being honest with the new guy in sharing all my anxieties and that I suffer from depression. My ex has basically said I'm selfish for thinking he would still stay my friend while I date other people.

My grandmother is also dying I think. My mom gave me the call today and said I should go visit my Nana sooner than I had planned on -I was gonna go Halloween weekend as it takes me 3hrs to get there. Now she is declining quicker than we realized.

I live away from my family. My brother doesn't talk to my parents or me. I called him tonight to see if he knew about my grandmother, but he isn't answering my calls.

I feel so overwhelmed. Idk what to do, I have no one. I mean my mom is all upset about my gram. I don't have too many friends around here to rely on either.

Dd I mention how much I like this guy? I'm afraid I might be too much for him. Idk. I see my counselor on Thursday. Although I was thinking of canceling to go to a work event to support a co-workers in a workshop he is presenting in the evening, so I would miss my counselor appt.

Idk what to do. I can't make any decisions on my own. I feel like there is this big wave coming over me and I don't even know how to get a grasp of it. This isn't how things are supposed to be.

Hello,
Oh girl you are in so difficult condition. Do one thing just talk with your ex bf let him realize that him is the only guy who loves you and just be positive don't think of other guy. This will make you confuse...
sorry if i being personal...

[doggiedo]

So here is another kink in the weekend plans to see my gram - I have to work at an open house for school on saturday and then head to another state (only an hour away here in New England) to go to my cousin's 1st birthday party. That's all on Saturday. AND, on Fri I was going to take a vacation day b/c my mom got tickets to see the Dali Lama. Idk if I should miss work to go to that or to take a day and see my gram. Otherwise, i won't be able to go up and see her until Sunday.

As for the ex thing - I haven't talked to him all day. I do feel like I'm a little lonely - noone. I just want to snuggle with the new b/f...i don't want to be too overwhelming though. I'm still hurt and licking my wounds from what the ex said last night...about me being selfish. I have to look out for someself - noone else in this world will!

Now, I am singing a different tune this morning - usually night time is worse for me and I feel really, really down. We'll see how things go as I progress through the day. Ugh. Thanks for the support guys. Oh, and I am keeping my appt for Thursday with my counselor. I just have to make myself call her and tell her that day/time is good...that is if she hasn't given it to someone else already.

[doggiedo]

On top of all that, I just crunched numbers from my bank account and expenses - my apartment rent increased about $100 in August...and I'm really going to have to consider getting a second job. I don't want to, but I think I need to. I have a little in savings, but I don't want to have to touch that. Ugh. Now, why do I have to find a second job when I have a master's in education - I should get paid enough to live darn it! I don't even know where I would look for one that would pay well and be flexible since I already work full time.