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Dec 05, 2012, 04:35 PM
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I've been on meds for 4 weeks and I had my breakdown 4 weeks and 1 day ago. Thankfully I was in my T's office when I decided to confess to someone I wanted to end my life.
Since starting the meds I've gone back to certain phases of disappointment and reality in my situation. In the beginnning before I started my day treatment program I thought in my head: I'll take the drugs for a couple weeks and I'll be back to normal once I get a blood level. I was pretty good up until today about getting my exercise in. I was able to force myself to do it for many weeks and today I just layed on the couch most of the day as today is my day off from the outpatient program (my plan was to go to the gym). Today I feel like I am at a bare minimum of doing one thing like bring my son to school and then I'm exhausted and I have to go lay down and take a nap. Tomorrow I have plans on running before program but I'm not sure it's possible. I'm tired of fighting and I want to just give in to the depression and let it take me over. I feel like my will is broken. At night my sleep isn't that great so I'm sure that's not helping. I'm going to see if I can get something to help with sleeping at night. I'm great at falling asleep but I don't stay asleep. I usually wake up for a couple hours in the middle of the night.
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Dec 05, 2012, 05:30 PM
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I'm new to the group and saw your thread while browsing. Your situation may have changed but you sound like me over 10 years ago. I have had clinical depression since 2003. Some people find the right med in a short amount of time and begin to feel better. I hope that for you. People like me aren't that lucky. Sometimes you have to try several meds to find one or a combination of 2 or more that work. All you can do is hang in there until that time. If you would want to converse more please let me know. I hope you are feeling better now. Lenard |
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Dec 05, 2012, 05:46 PM
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Four weeks isn't enough to give the meds. Sometimes it takes up to 6 weeks for the meds to work. It depends on the medication that he gave you. So please wait awhile, and give it a chance. I'm sure it will work.
 I know you're tired of fighting. I was too. I've been depressed since I was about 4 or 5 years old. I didn't get treatment until I was in my 20's cause my parents were too busy getting drunk. But back then there wasn't much they could do with a 4 or 5 yr old, except maybe a therapist -- and I'm SURE my parents wouldn't have taken me to one. When I first started treatment, my meds took 6 wks to work, and I never thought they'd work in a million years. But they DID and it was like HEAVEN. I finally felt "normal" whatever that is.  So don't despair. You WILL feel better. God bless, and please take care of yourself. I'm sending prayers your way. Hugs, Lee
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Dec 05, 2012, 06:48 PM
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When I was put on medications, they all caused reactions that rendered me unable to walk, there were hallucinations, and most made me nauseated. My system is overly sensitive to medications though, and that was a long time ago. The point is, if one drug hits you too hard, there are other ones, and it never hurts to ask. A big reason people go off medications for psychiatric problems is because of the side effects. Others stop because they can't feel. I had a close friend in high school that was bipolar. She would start the lithium, then, when she started to feel better, she would stop taking them thinking that she didn't need them anymore. She also said they made her feel numb emotionally. The newer medications have less side effects than the ones that were available twenty years ago. There are also more of them. Its worth looking into. Feel better  Sam2 |
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Dec 06, 2012, 02:30 AM
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I had a hard time with some meds. I dont remember which one it was, but it caused me to be really really tired all the time. it was an antidepressant.
my brother had a similar reaction. he got on prozac after acting suicidal (about 20 years ago.) it was supposed to help him, but he just slept all the time. we couldnt even get him to clean his room, go to school or shower. many years later he did fine on Lexapro. so maybe your doctor can help you find another med, if that's what the problem is. |
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Dec 06, 2012, 05:05 PM
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Thank you all so much for the replies!
I have a script for a sleep aid so I'm going to try it tonight. I think part of the problem is lack of sleep. I have no problems going to sleep at night and then I wake up two hours later and I'm up for two hours or I go in and out of sleep for the entire night and wake up exhausted. Today thankfully was a better day. I forced myself to run this morning and it helped a lot. I have so much of my identity tied to running that if I don't run I feel like a complete failure. One day at a time. PS I'm currently taking 40mg of citalopram.
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