Very depressed,I need to vent. (also scared)

I was going up the elevaor and I got off on my floor,when looked around as I was going down the hall I felt like I was choking also my heart was pounding.I was looking at all the ppl. that sit outside they rooms and most of these ppl. been here more then 5 years we even got this one girl who been here for 24 yr.sI find that that teriffying! what if that happans to me? I alreadry been here for 2 yrs.

Tita... it's ok... breathe a little bit. Every case is different - it's not necessarily going to happen to you. But sure, I'd probably be depressed and scared too, so I'm not going to say that you shouldn't feel that way. However, you have us and we care... you're not alone when you come here.

I didnt finsh cause (I hit the submit buttom on accident )I'm not thinking to good tonite I cant live like this I dont now what's gonna happan near home near famirler things that I'm used to I mind a assisisted liviving facility or
a group home thats something that I never used want to accept I'm just real scared tonite my outlook in life has changed from when I was younger Iijust dont want to end up old and and forgot about. if it comes down to that I'm just going back to Puerto Rico,to live with my family I'm sorry to bother everyone I just feel so miserable it hurts me so bad

((( Tita )))

I'm sorry that you're hurting. Why haven't you gone back to live with your family yet? Is the facility better in NYC, is that why?

I don't blame you for not wanting to end up old and forgotten. I'm sorry that you're so sad

Hey, I fear growing old alone too.
I hope you find a place where you can feel safe and hopeful about the future. I think I'd find a half way house depressing.
What kind of progress have you made over the past two years? Can you list it no matter how small it is. If you have made progress, then you are succeeding in your battle. If not, then you are still alive. There is always hope where there is life. I hope you find a way to make it through this.