[elmarko]

hey i aint been on here for ages, and just came across it again so i thought i would post something. lately i have been feeling really lame, and i am sick of it, my friends are telling me that they think i have signs of schizophrenia too, which i better not! its the last thing i want! anyways dont know what to say right now, ,my mind isnt exactly working today. happy new year and i hope you all doing well.

Marko

[darkeyes]

Hi there
You can't let your friends make diagnosis, and please do not allow this feeling to continue to over take you.
See if you can talk to a professional and let him or her decide what the problem is, there are so many disorders that can be treated once properly diagnosed.
This can help all the confusion, and get you on track.
Friends may mean well but let's face it they are not pdocs.
I hope you lots of luck with this, always feel free to drop back here again.

Take good care now

"darkeyes"

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON

[Audrey]

I think that it is natural to feel lame once in awhile. The world isn't always a fun place. Sometimes I say things or do things are pretty lame. Everyone does. So if you feel lame, just remember that your not any lamer than everyone else. Is there a particular instance that you are refering to?

[elmarko]

hellaw, thanks for your replies, i appreciate it. i am feeling a lot better today but have been having lots of ups and downs lately, its very annoying! i have been feeling lame lots because of my depression, i dont know what exactly triggerrs it off tho. wish i did, then maybe i could preveint it? anyways thanks for replying, hope your having a good year so far, iv had better!

Marko

[maryjane]

Hi Marko, I know what you mean about feeling lame. I stew things over in my head so long it stops me in my tracks. The problem is I was diagnosed witha personality disorder by my therapist and then left with that in the air! I have felt slighty out of it since, work has been very tiresome, feel like I am being laughed at bullyed. Now I have left and have no job and am scared to go to another for fear of the same reprise.This all causes me to freak out, I can't go out of the door and ended up trying to get in hospital. there is other [censored] that I have ended up doing because I have been so lost but I won't go into it. What causes you to feel depressed, why do your friends thinkyour schizo? Hope by opening up I have made you feel less alone, this forum does that for me.
"the greatness inlife is not never falling but rising every time we fall"

[elmarko]

i dont know what has made me feel depressed, but whatever it was it happened almost 18 months ago at least, thats when all this started. since then i seen myself in hospital several times, on meds and generally going crazy. my friends think it schizo cos of how i act, i dont realise it, but i never remember things, i believe things that are real stupid, if someone tells me its true then thats it, its true. i have been hearing voicees (not to much lately) and always feel as if i am not alone, at times to the extent that i cant be left alone for fear someone is gona grab me. i know this sounds stupid but thats just me.

[somebodyelse]

elmarko, do you have a regular therapist or pdoc? If so, then you should definitely give them a call and let them know what's going on. If not, then you need to find one. It's much better to get a professional opinion than to rely on untrained people's opinions. Are you on meds right now? If so, you may need a med change.

At any rate, please keep us posted on how you're doing.

[elmarko]

nah i dont have a therapist. i got a doctor but never go to see her cos i cant face up to it, i was on meds last year (citalopram 40mg) but that just seemed to make me sleep lots, i came of that last april and have been battling thru since. i am aware that i have a problem, i just dont really want to have to face up to it. too scared of how it would afffect my family (my mum knows i was on antidepressants but wasnt convinced i needed em)

Marko

[dexter]

elmarko imo it is not worth you suffering just because of someone else's opinion. if you can't convince your mom that you need help then seek it on your own. if she's willing maybe the doc can talk to her and explain the illness, most people really don't understand it.

but if she is not willing to learn then advocate for yourself. knowing that you need help is the first and most important and bravest step toward getting better. if the previous med did not work out for you the doctor should have alternatives. everyone reacts very differently to each med but there are lots of alternatives and it is up to you and your doctor to stick with it to find something that works well for you with no or few side effects.

don't give up. it is a valid fear concerning your families expectations, but this is not something you are "chosing" to put them through and in the long run no getting treatment will cause more problems for you and for them. even if they never "get it" it is your right to get help toward a better life for yourself which will benefit them as well in the long run.

if your family won't be responsive try to find a support group locally, they are usually free and you can talk with people who have the same problems you do, you'll see you are not alone and that lots of people have trouble getting friends or family members to understand. having the support of others who "understand" is a big help. likewise keep posting here for the same reason.

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