[DarkSoul23]

(Cliche forthcoming) Im 23, no direction, no social life & iv never had a gf. The frustration is im ambitious, intelligent & a gd looking young man

Im stuck in this dark tunnel & im circling this dark tunnel & its only getting darker.. . I just feel so lonely.. It can be overwhelming at times, browsing FB, seeing others embrace at work, through this hollow shell of existence. People like me & yet I don't 'fit in'. My bravado says 'care-free', my inner-sanctuary screams 'normality'.

'Normality' as in prospects & a social life. Because im not a sheep & will never change 'who I am' because im proud of who I am. I can't stand my brother with his stupid bieber hairstyle, piercings & 'grimey' attitude. Vile .

My cousins no worse (hes a pessimistic morbid prick who would suck the life out of a daisy field) but I go out with him 'caus iv no other sparring partner. Gaming is my sanctuary but I need LIFE. Oh & im stuck in a dead-end job .

Im tired of isolatin myself. Im tired of feeling uptight when I know im upbeat. Im tired of the same ****ing routine with nothin to show but un-happiness. I have a qualification in IT, I have some interest in psychology, journalism..

Sorry for the biography LOL , I hope someone, anyone can relate .

How do u find direction without direction?

[GreyThinker]

Hi DarkSoul23, welcome! I love your descriptions and quirky faces . I'm sorry you are feeling lonely and overwhelmed and isolated, but I'm really glad you came here and posted. You sound, like you said, intelligent and ambitious (I shall just have to believe you about the goodlookingness ). How to find direction without direction? Well.... you could come here for a while and vent and try out ideas and bounce things around.... here is a safe encouraging place and often people have great ideas. Here is a starting point, bouncing off from something you said, just as a beginning.......I have sons who are gamers and they frequently go to things called LANs and gamer conventions or hook up their computers at each other's places and play all night while consuming quantities of beer and corn chips . Do you do that, or can you and your cousin get together and invite some online friends around for a real-life meet?

[DarkSoul23]

Its funny u say that 'caus I kinda did that Saturday before partying in town to the early hours, awaking dizzy then doing the dreaded excuse-call to work to my two-faced sarcy ***** of a manager .

I like ur idea. Create emphasis for interaction, ie personal interest. Its common logic really yet logic fails us in despair. Above all its about 'getting out' there & building confidence. Confidence really is key to everything, 1ce ur confident its about maintaining that just as u would maintain low self-esteem.

Im writing this on the back of yet another sleepless night (GAD & Skyrim ) & it needs to stop. I vowed this year I'll break free from this rut of insecurity & start taking control of my life. I've isolated myself for more than necessary, its time to have FUN now. Every1 can be happy, regardless of age & regardless of state of mind.

Easier said than done I know . Just be care-free yet focused in attitude & we'll go a long way .

[GreyThinker]

:-) well you seem to have a positive attitude towards finding solutions, that's great. I also agree that getting enough sleep is crucial to maintaining it! Good luck in your exploring of ideas....I personally will be away for a week or so but I look forward to hearing how it goes.

[NoCake]

Good! Don't change. It's refreshing to be here and meet people you feel like you haven't met a hundred times over... Don't get me wrong - everyone is different - but many wear masks...

Anyway LAN parties are fun. I don't play video games much anymore and haven't been to a LAN party since Halo 1 (lol) but they can be a lot of fun. The key seems to be to just go out and experience more in the world. Then maybe you'll feel better.

[CastlesInTheAir]

I had this routine and I always sat in my house thinking and re thinking and over thinking of how to change everything.....so then it became a routine in my head....blank, paranoid, depressed, dark....etc....

So, I took it to the extreme and decided to be impulsive for once.......

Your lack of direction causes you to constantly question yourself. So, you sit in the same place, doing the same things over and over, in the same job.....screw that!

F that job! Get a new one! Hell, move........if you have no direction then just go in any direction.....eventually youll end up going in one direction......its better than sitting where you are, right?

Seriously, what have you got to lose?

[DarkSoul23]

Completely agree. Idle mind is a devils workshop. I definitely struggle with anxiety & depression has manifest because of that. My sleep pattern has been ****ed for years. Im 23 I should have so much life in me. I just want social gatherings, a future, a gf..

I've been to a few occasional buffets & during brief positive interactions with pretty looking sorts I was wonderful yet pitiful inside. Knowing this is what I long for & knowing this is what im not going home to. Gazin from the taxi twilight at yet another missed opportunity..

I need to get out of this bed.

"I've been on the shelf too long & now its time to hear my song "