Reeaaaaaalllllllllllllllly struggling

I'm sorry, but I need to vent. I have not been on this site in a while b/c I have been so depressed & withdrawn. I have basically been in bed for the majority of the time (awake, though) for the past week.

I am really, really, really, really struggling. Absolutely, totally, completely struggling. I can't do this. I thought I was at rock bottom, but I just keep falling (after I pick myself up again).

My "dr" (so-called) is a complete MORON. He is supposed to be a psychiatrist; howevever, over the last two mos in my appts, he has pretty much divulged his life story to me. This is completely inappropriate, unethical, unprofessional and is really affecting me, especially being in such a vulnearable state. The only reason that I have "hung in" and continued to see this idiot of a "dr" is b/c I am so desparate for help and don't want to go to the hospital - that is hell on wheels. Unfortunately, my last psychiatrist changed his focus from general psych to forensics, so he was just seeing me ~once/month & not giving me the proper therapy. I am stuck with this new jerk until I manage to find a new dr. This jerk hasn't even bothered to call me back to schedule an appt for this (past) week - after I left two messages on his voice mail last Thurs & Fri asking him to please call me for that exact reason. He really needs some help himself. One day when I feel up to it, I will post a message about the crazy, crazy things he has told me about his life & himself. You won't believe it. Oh, and he has touched me inappropriately, too. Nice, eh? I politely confronted him almost two weeks ago about this - which is very difficult for me to do (assert myself and set personal boundries). I asked him to never touch me (on the legs - lower thighs - & shoulder) again. Amazingly (to my surprise), he agreed not to. I am extremely close to writing a letter to the College of Physicians & Surgeons to report him....although I don't have enough energy to right now. (Besides, he told me that he has less than 3 mos to live - terminal leukemia - so I thought I'd try to let it go). (A lot easier said than done). He seems like a complete wack-job & con artist.

It is SO lousy up here in Canada........there are not enough doctors, let alone psychiatrists. Every single new psych (or GP who can do psychotherapy) whom I call is fully booked with no waiting list, not taking on any new patients and does not have any idea as to who else I can call.

I would gladly see a psychologist, but unfortunately I have not been able to work in a very long time. My income barely covers things & psychologists are not covered up here. Psychiatrists are, however. Hence, they are fully booked.

I am so frustrated, so angry, so depressed. Plus, I cannot sleep & only have some "left over" meds that have been scribed to me in the past that I'm using to attempt to sleep. I am so fed up.......

If anyone has any suggestions or words of support, that would be fantastic. I'm sorry to ****** & complain......I am just really, really going through hell right now & the future is totally hopeless. I'm "in the void". I've done so many things to try to help myself and I've tried so hard to do my best lately & over the years of pain & misery.....but where has it gotten me???? I'm still living in pure hell.

((((((((DEPARADO)))))))))))

Hi Mystry,

Ok, so I'm relatively new (but not logging in regularly). I assume that the brackets = hugs?

Anywho, thank you. I'm going to assume that for the time being & accept your hugs.

Right back at you.

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yes they mean hugs my friend...and each bracket is a hug...sorry I can't be of much help to you...at least I maybe able to help with your downloading of java...

Woooah

you CANNOT

have someone who touched you

try n treat u.

you may be depressed but clearly you are not silly. this is not good for yu ... or for other ppl he may be putting at risk ...

please take care and if you have the strength it would be amazingly good if you did report him ... does he have colleagues (e.g. a boss) >?

good luck my dear.

{{{{{desparado}}}}} so sorry about pdoc.....report him....he should never touch a patient....it is unethical....take care

Uh, so sorry this is happening. That Doc sounds like a complete whack job, if I were you I would never go see him again, no explanations necessary. It amazes me that people that are complete morons can get a psychiatry degree like that.

Anyway, yes, your not feeling to hot but I think you would be better off not seeing a Doc and searching for the right one, rather then seeing that guy. He's obviously very inappropriate. He may harm you more then help you. It sounds as though he may be attracted to you or something.

Please don't give up, you have all our support here. Just continue looking around till you find the right person for you. I hope all works out.

1. report him.
2. try to find a support group in the meantime
3. find a new Pdoc......love, pat

No probs.

Thanks, though Mystry.

I appreciate your message & you trying to help me install Java.

Thanks everyone, for the feedback.....yes, I will report him. He's extremely unethical & has major problems himself.

Early this a.m., I called his voice mail & left another message asking him to call me to renew my sleeping meds, at least. NO phone call back. I called later this aft & the receptionist said that he is off all day & off on vacay next week. Nice. I am so angry. He told me he checks his voice mail every day, even on days off & weekends.

What goes around comes around, & he's really going to get it when I report him.

p.s.: No, unfortunately he doesn't have a superior (I can't remember which member asked this question) - just the College.

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I am really sorry for your struggle right now. I am glad that you are picking up strength to report him, for he certainly hasn't been of any help to you.
I do wish you much luck and strength in finding a new doctor who will treat you in the way that you derserve.

Thanks, Sabrina.

I do have my work cut out for me........

Hi I live in NYC and I dont know much about canada,I do know that Dr was taking advantage of a situation I wouldnt never have stood for someone of professional authority touch me somthing similuar happand a long while ago and that turned alot of that dr.s paitaitats against Him. He was tranfered to another part of New York. it's not fair You have to deal with that and all your struggles how are you doing now? I hope for you to feel better