I need to find a new pill to pop!

it seems like everything has gone downhill once I got off Paxil (about a year ago). ever since then I've tried Luvox, Prozac, Celexa, Effexor, Klonopam, Buspar, and now I'm on Anafranil. I don't even know what to categorize myself as anymore but I know I have these unrealistic paranoid thoughts that just WON'T GO AWAY. it's a deeply embedded FEAR of like other people that they are all plotting something against me and they all know something I don't know. even people that are my friends, I can't even talk to them normally because it's like somehow in my voice they can hear that I have these doubts about them and on my face they can see I have these doubts about them, along with everyone else who may be a complete stranger. it's worse when strangers start to become familiar then I think that they're talking to me just to rub stuff in my face or something. I'm a cashier at a grocery store so this is becoming hard. I wish I could just think of this as small but it's making itself a big deal in my life. and of course it's making me depressed and sad and hopeless, not being able to get out of this state of thinking. it's like I feel like they have alterior motives than just knowing me as a person. I'm doubting what I stand for and what I believe in and it's like I definetly am not myself anymore and I can't even joke with people and be goofy and they can't joke with me and I'm so sensitive to things and I just want to get out of this. I don't know if it's OCD or bipolar or schizophrenia but does ANYONE have any experience close to mine that they can HELP ME in this. this Anafranil helped in the beginning (maybe first week I was on it) but I DON'T GET IT why would it poop out after like one week. my psych says she really doesn't like to give antipsychotics because of some kind of uncontrollable limb movement thing, I really can't recall the name at this moment. I just need some advice, someone who's had a story like this before and even going through it now. I need to know if there's something out there that can help me.

Hello, Clash, and welcome.

If you know that you're paranoid, you know that it isn't really the way others are
relating to you. And if you know that you are ultra-sensitive, you know that you
need to talk to yourself more about being less sensitive and thinking that most
people mean no harm.

In fact, they are really just trying to be nice by talking about things with you.
Oh, there are some people who have severe illnesses who are harmful to others,
but, truly, they are few and far between. Try to remember that most people mean
well and wish no harm to anyone, simply because they know that what they do to others, they're also do to themselves.

You should tell your psychiatrist about this, in my view, because there may be a
medication you can take that will relieve the symptoms you have at work while you
continue to work on helping yourself understand that people don't mean harm to you
in the overwhelming majority, and they wouldn't be talking about you in some unkind
way in almost all cases.

Try to relax and look for something pleasant in people if you can and when you can
after your doctor has put you on the proper medication.

There are some good ones out there now, including Lamictal which is a mood stabilizer that some people take.

I really don't know what's recommended for paranoid thinking, but I'm certain there
is an appropriate med for you to take. Remember that most of us have had at least three changes before reaching the right "cocktail" of meds to relieve depression symptoms.

Take care.

Hey Wish I could help more but not sure I can. Some of what you feel and think seems normal but obviously some of it is too much. If you said you'd been given a diagnosis I must have missed it. I'd be wary of antipsychotic meds if you aren't psychotic. Other than the paranoia and suspicion you seem to have a pretty good grip on reality. I'm curious about why the Paxil was stopped and how well it worked... and had you felt anything like this at other times in your life.
If it's any consolation... most people aren't interested enough about us to plot against us Have some hope

Clash,

Obsessive thoughts, paranoia, sounds like OCD symptoms. I struggled with the disease for years, anafranil, with some side effects changed my life. It takes approx three weeks to see results