[InTheShadows]

Tuesday night I attempted suicide and hurt a lot of people. I have been depressed with suicidal ideation for 22 years. I lost sight of any future and all hope that this world held any possibilities for me to be happy.

I am still in a regular hospital recovering and will probably move to a psychward today or tomorrow. If you can post any words of encouragement here, whiteNight can print it out and bring it to the hospital for me. I thank you from the depths of my being.

Huggles,
Shady

[astenon]

My thoughts are with you and I'm wishing you a speedy recovery.

I am sorry things have gotten to this point for you Shadows and hope that you can get the help you need in the psych ward to effect lasting and meaningful change in your outlook on life.

Regards,

Toilet.

[BorderlineMess]

Oh hun, I've been where you are before. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I know that the psych wards are there mostly to keep you safe, but also hope you find some help there. I'm glad you're safe now. My thoughts are with you. Lots of hugs, lots of love, and lots of support going your way. If you ever want to PM or add me as a friend when you get home, feel free. Take care.

[tinyrabbit]

I am sorry you went to this place. Sending you hugs and support. I am new to the board, but I know what it is like to feel this way.

[adam_k]

I have been there a couple of times myself. Just remember people are hurt because they truly care about you. I wish you to get better and I hope people can see you were overwhelmed and that's why you tried to do what you did. People can only cope with so much pain before they buckle. I hope you find a way to get your life back in order.

[Pikku Myy]

Just had one of these a bit ago... on this site..... and trying my best to keep my calm....

[nicoleb2]

Shady,

I am SO glad to hear that you will be ok! I hope you can get some much needed help while you are at the hospital, and when you are able to go home!

Get well soon so you can come chat with us again

[smmath]

i have been where you are before and i lied about my reasoning behind it. but in the end my attempt was a much needed catalyst for me to get the mental help that i desperately needed. now i am not at all saying trying to end one's life is ever the way to go,. i just really hope that this event will lead you to getting the help and support you deserve.

much hugs...you WILL get through this!

--Sam

[November Blue]

im really sorry that youre hurting, and i genuinely hope that you get on your feet soon

[Onward2wards]

I understand that loss of hope and fight. I'm glad you are still with us. Don't be afraid to be frank and open with your care team, tell them what you need and everything that is stressing you out in life right now. (((Shady)))

[black dog boogie]

Hi Shady,
Take it easy and just allow yourself to relax and rest while you are in the hospital. Try not to worry about anything else going on out in the world (easier said than done). Let the doctors help you. Maybe you can arrange for someone to visit you daily and remind you that it will get better?
I am so sorry to hear you're going through a rough time - I wish you all the best, please keep us updated, we're thinking of you! I know I don't know you but I just want to say that your existence and life on this earth is important and worthwhile!! I really want you to stick around and learn to get better, there is soo much that life has to offer. You can learn to find it. All the best x

[jean17]

Originally Posted by InTheShadows

Tuesday night I attempted suicide and hurt a lot of people. I have been depressed with suicidal ideation for 22 years. I lost sight of any future and all hope that this world held any possibilities for me to be happy.

I am still in a regular hospital recovering and will probably move to a psychward today or tomorrow. If you can post any words of encouragement here, whiteNight can print it out and bring it to the hospital for me. I thank you from the depths of my being.

Huggles,
Shady

My heart hurts for you. Be kind & gentle to yourself and get all the help you can get. Remember you are a beautiful person.

[tarmyg]

So good to hear from you Shadows. We are so missing you!.. Many times I have been in chat when you enter the room. Your presence and words are things that instantly cast a loving and positive light on those in the room. You are wanted, needed, and loved by so many. I am thankful to know you and hope that our friendship will continue to grow. Keep fighting hard. Cant wait to see you pop into chat! Gentle hugs and prayers for you!

[Rohag]

((((((( InTheShadows! )))))))

[Pierro]

Im so sorry that its got so low but, the only way is up. you are in the right place where you will get the proper help that you need. I really hope you get better soon.

[InTheShadows]

Its official I'm off to the psych unit. Should be only a couple days. Feeling much better than Tuesday.

Huggles,
Shady

[whiteNight]

The first 36 hours shady was unconscious and I was not able to be with her. On Thursday afternoon after I got off work I was able to go directly to her and I spent Thursday night with her, went to work Friday then spent all of Friday afternoon and into Saturday where she was able to be transferred today as she has already stated and I stuck around for the visiting hours which I just got home from.

Thank you for all the support.

[dillpickle1983]

I can imagine the pain that you are in, as I was there 7 times last year. Yes 7 mental health hospitalizations for attempted suicide. My heart goes out to you. Take this time to reflect on your life and how good it is, even the bad days are good. We all care about you and want to see you get better. (Hugs)

Sent from my BlackBerry 9310

[krisakira]

I'm just so glad you are still alive, apologies aside. I really hope you get the help you need in the psych ward and treatment from now on. You're in my thoughts, shadow. I wish I had some sort of words of wisdom but I don't. Just know you are loved.

[RandomNightOwl]

I'm new here but I just want you to know I can TOTALLY sympathize. I tried to commit suicide last February on my birthday. And I know EXACTLY what it feels like to not even want to deal with family members and/or friends because of what you did and although I cant make things physically any easier I sincerely wish you the best, you have my (and I'm sure others') fullest support. Us here dealing with depression? Yeah we need to stick together. I remember last year being on my laptop desperate because I knew I'd be moved to a psych ward and wanting support but not even knowing where to get it. (Now we all do) You will be alright. This is a curse and also a blessing. Being hospitalized sucks, no way around that but its not the end of the world. You should be out pretty quickly. It'll lend some perspective. Stay strong. Keep your head up. Try to take this as positively as possible. Best of luck

[whiteNight]

I just visited Shady and she wanted me to pass on a message for you all.

"Hi All,

We are doling okay. We spent a large part of the day on the women's unit and that helped tremendously. It felt good to be among supportive women who want to recover. We wrote about how hour illness makes us feel. Words we chose are: sad, down, alone, abandoned, fake, jealous, tenacious, accomplished and more. Fake because we put up a facade of happiness as expected. Jealous of others who have had it easier. Mentally, we are ready to fight again. Ready to grow and achieve even more. As daunting as our memories are, we understand now that they cannot hurt us anymore. They are things that we have already survived. We are strong. We are capable. Clarity says we are here for a reason. We have a purpose. We have worth. This time we will not leave until the doctor says we are ready. It is about time we put ourselves first and deal with the issues not symptoms. We will be back on PC when we get out. We want to encourage you all to take care of yourselves and do what you need to get, be or stay healthy.
Love and Hugs,
Shady

P.S. Our motto: I am enough. I have enough. I do enough."

Thank you for all your support

[Amazonmom]

I was so worried I would lose my friend.

I'm glad you were found and you like the hospital you are in now.

I am crying now so I think I will stop typing.

I love you Shady.

[googley]

(((((((((((((Shadows)))))))))))))))

Thank you for that letter. Thank you for passing it on WN.

We are here waiting for you when you are ready. Take all the time you need.

[Silent_Tears_17]

Big hugs!!!!