[jacq10]

so completly alone.
like curling up in a ball and crying
numb
like a different person
like no one cares

did i mention alone???

Everyone who I care about is just slipping away from underneath me. I had hoped that distance wouldn't cause this ... but it has. I wish i wasn't here. I wish i wasn't the person I have been all summer. I wish I could sit down and talk and cry with my housemaster (she has pretty much been my mom for the past 2 years) .... but she's in Ontario ... I miss her so much. I dont know what to do. I know crying doesn't solve anything... but that seems to be all i've been doing ... I don't know what to do. My mom ran off to NYC with her new boyfriend for 5 days so I am literally here by myself.... and I hate who i've become by feeling like this forever........

i'm so sorry that you're feeling lonely and unsupported. i can understand how you would miss your housemaster a lot.

what can i do to help you with this? i'm home all afternoon and you can either PM me or post here.

sometimes family does things that aren't thought through and it causes us to feel neglected and down. but, you've come to a really good place to find "family" and have people that will listen to you and share with you.

xoxox pat

(((((((Jacq10)))))) I promise, you won't feel like this forever.

i agree with pat jacq, come here for support, we are as close to family as it can physically get!

i understand 100% where you are coming from, im having the same type of day emotionally too, but just keep reminding yourself of those who love you (they may not be present currently) and hold onto those feelings.

let the tears flow, empty your body of all the tears, you may find it could take a while, but you will get there. and when you feel "cried out" try to work on yourself and try to cheer yourself up by doing something you really enjoy doing, even if it means forcing yourself to get up and do it, it will benefit you in the long run.

take care jacq, and remember, you can pm me when you want a chat, or if theres anyhting you need, just holler in my direction. you are not alone at all, especially when you are here at pc.

[jacq10]

Thanks for your support guys .. it means alot (((hugs)))

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Believe it or not, it will pass jacq. Take up faye's offer: she strikes me as a kind and sensible person, and could be of great help to you.
Take care