[Got Java]

I am very very pissed off today. I just feel like telling the whole world to kiss my mother****ing *** right now. I can't seem to feel any different today and I don't feel like I am making any progress in my relationship with my friends or my family.its a lot to deal with when you feel that you're not going anywhere but staying in one dam place not moving toward in getting things accomplished or hashed out. I want some progress to occur, but I don't want to push my luck which I don't seem to have a grain of salt worth right now.

I don't want to cause or make waves anymore with both sides because in the end I feel it's just going to get blown up in my direction and ill be stuck back in square one again.

I need to make progress to get better in think and hopefully something will start moving the wheels of some sort of progress soon before I get myself so messed up I can fix it anymore or cause major damage I can't ever change in my life.

[Sam2]

The fact that you are able to be angry and express it may be a step forward in itself. Probably not the one you want, but fixing something like depression is never an overnight thing.

Regardless of where you are in your life, there is always a chance to change. I know it is frustrating when everything moves so slow or you feel as though all the progress you made has gone backwards, but that is the nature of depression. Having the guts to face your problems and the will to work on them says a lot about you.

Your depression and all the other garbage that goes with it didn't happen over night, and its not going to change back overnight. For one thing, not only do you have to change the way you are, but other people are going to need to adjust themselves to the person you are becoming.

Your anger and frustration are understandable. I'm glad that you feel you can voice them here. Maybe it will help diffuse the anger and allow you to face things with a cooler head.

Sam2

[Leed]

Hi GotJava ~ I understand where you're coming from. But like Sam said, things didn't get like this over night. It's going to take while to fix it.

Are you in therapy? Perhaps that would be a good idea, if you're not. A good therapist can help you get out of this mess. i know it helped me alot to be in therapy. The depression eased, and I learned how to better cope as well.

Also, medication helped. In my case, my therapist said I also needed medication so my doc put me on it. It made a world of difference, and if you're not on any, perhaps you NEED to be. Talk with your doctor -- he can help.

I wish you the very best. Please take care & God bless. Hugs, Lee