[Flinty]

Hi All,
Well I must say I had a very bad night last night!!!
I totally broke down, I hated myself & my life so much that I stood in my kitchen with a sharp knife in my hand for quite some time, picturing myself doing some serious harm to myself.... I got so worked up that when I finally realised what was happening, I was cuddled up in the corner of a room, rocking back & forth!!!
I am battling some issues that have been hanging around for some time now..... I've been trying to LOVE MYSELF, as I look in the mirror & HATE what I see!!!
But I am still here & plan to be here for a long time yet!!

[zombiette]

((((flinty))))
well done on putting the knife down u sound like u r going thru a hard time but u r doing a really good job fighting it. please talk to a T or dr asap though - stay safe and do try to take good care of urself everyone here will love u til u can love urself

[Bethsway]

Flinty..I hope you are getting help...yes I been there...I am so proud of you to stop and think more...that is always a good thing to do...stop and think...cry...get it out...Please let your doctor know about last night okay?

[Bethsway]

PS I love you for opening up and for your truthfulness...Sending a big HUG!!!

[heartspace]

(((Flinty))) ... been wondering how you've been going. Sorry to hear you had such a bad night, and glad to see you posting today.
Stay safe, and take care.

[jacq10]

((((flinty))))) .

..sorry to hear about your rough night last night, but just know that you have tremendous strength to put that knife down, even if it didn't feel like it at the time. i hope that you have someone that you trust that you can talk to IRL, but if not, know that we are here for you. Take care of yourself

Jacq

hi flinty.

dont you just hate days like that. it is hard to want to carry on when there are such dark feelings inside. but i am proud of you for realising what you were about to do was wrong, be proud of yourself too.

i too know what its like to be seconds away from suicide. i was there once. it does change you, if you let it. you have already proved you have what it takes to beat this and i am confident this strength will continue. for days when the strength seems non-existent, please know that we are here to offer that boost, anytime.

i will pm you shortly, to see how you are ok. i hope you feel you can talk to me. as i said, i know exactly what its like to experience this so i can try to help as much as i can.

speak soon, and take care of yourself, you are doing brilliantly.

simon

[dcs_no1_fan]

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Flinty said:
Hi All,
Well I must say I had a very bad night last night!!!
I totally broke down, I hated myself & my life so much that I stood in my kitchen with a sharp knife in my hand for quite some time, picturing myself doing some serious harm to myself.... I got so worked up that when I finally realised what was happening, I was cuddled up in the corner of a room, rocking back & forth!!!
I am battling some issues that have been hanging around for some time now..... I've been trying to LOVE MYSELF, as I look in the mirror & HATE what I see!!!
But I am still here & plan to be here for a long time yet!!

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thats what u r 4 puttin down that knife

I just want 2 say that i now how ur feelin i have thought about taking my own life so many times but i just cant do it I could never leave my husband & kids on there own my husband would fall 2 bits if i wasnt around with him as he says that i am his whole life i hope that u have some 1 in ur life that feels like that about u

i now how u feel about looking in the mirror & hating what u c as im goin through the same thing myself atm i think im fat & every1 thinks that im 2 skinny

T.C Flinty

[Flinty]

I want to say thank you to all the wonderful people in here.... your kind words & support are amazing!!!
You are all such special people & I love the fact that you never judge.

THANK YOU!!!