[Pogaca]

Hello there, I am Alex, 21 years old, from Serbia. I think I have a problem, and it's depression. You see, 5 years ago, something happend to me, I ended in hospital, turns out I have epilepsy. In that same time I lost my best friend and slowly I begin to be separated from society, from people. I had constant depression problems, even tried to kill myself back then (4 years ago). And what happend next is that I started playing MMORPG games just to distract myself, to do something. Of course, I found utopia in that, but the problem never passed within me, only got worst. I was happy playing this games but then I started realizing how unsocial I become and how much I don't like to hang out with people. I swaped reality with internet illusion. Like internet friends from games. I wanted to believe that can be true, at least something good, you know. But of course, none of this stuff work, and I got only even more depressed. I also realized that I don't have strong enough will to do anything. I can start like 100 projects and finish NONE. That thing also make me nervous. That can be seen trough games. For example , I start with one character, change to another, and do that so many times until all the people lvl up just one character. And of course, they are ahead , I am "loser" . I think I said all important so far. What should I do? I don't have will to do anything basicly.

[Sam2]

Alex,
gaming can be a great way to escape reality, but they are also a trap. After a while, you start to live more in the cyber world than you do the real world. This is especially true if you are already suffering with depression. You don't have to face anyone, you become completely absorbed in the game and it begins to seem more real than the world outside the game.


To tell you to just get out and start doing things would be too simple. It sounds like you are depressed enough and in such a deep rut that you need a therapist to help you out. There is a reason why you are depressed, and while that constant gaming didn't cause the depression, its allowing you to hide and make the outside world go away.

It may be that no one can tell you why you were hit with the depression. It could be a chemical imbalance or purely psychological. There is no shame in either. The longer you wait to get help, the harder it will be and the deeper you will fall into your depression.

At some point, you might want to set limits for yourself with the gaming. Set aside an hour or two and when the time is up, quit. Gaming is an addiction for some, and you might want to talk about a therapist on strategies to get the games into perspective. You could also use them as a reward. For example, pick a task that has to be done, such as finding a therapist, and don't let yourself play on the computer or x box or whatever until its done.

Either way, please get some help. You don't need to live in misery with no human contact.

Sam2

[the abyss]

you are not a cyborg you are a human being, and humans have needs.
you need to go into a green space, a park and reconnect with the real world, go help people in need, join a club where you are interacting with others.
gaming is great in moderation.
you would not drink a whole bottle of vodka every night only an idiot would do that, there fore the same can be said for gaming all the time .
take care