[don964964]

NO SUICIDAL THOUGHTS __ NO SUICIDAL POSTS-- NO SUICIDAL THOUGHTS

here is how I see it I am going to die soon enough anyway
but I don't see the point of this piss *** existence

[Bark]

tealBumblebee, it sounds like your mood is all over the place. Are you on any meds? It sounds like you're rapid cycling. I really suggest you see a doctor so you can stabilize it a bit. I remember when I rapid cycled multiple times in the same day: horrible, really.

I felt really tired yesterday, and slept a bit early. Thank goodness for my med, though, because I felt some depression coming on and my mind was wide awake. Now I've slept over twelve hours and... I just feel blah. I don't know. I'm going to get out of bed, have a bite, and see what happens.

Hugs to all, and hoping that everyone has at least a moment today where they feel better.

Oh, and lifelies, I think you said something about this thread being for unipolar depression: it's not, it's for everyone and anyone who feels depressed from time to time (or all the time). At least, that's the way I see it. Otherwise, I probably would have been kicked out a long time ago.

[angryworld]

Feel so scared. It's so undignified for me to feel this way. This is supposed to be my last decade of useful work. My last chance to contribute and I've done nothing. So useless.

Everything is kind of falling apart again. It was so hard to push through and overcome what happened last week. Not sure I have the resources to do it again so soon.
I can try though. Adversity is supposed to be character building. I think too much construction is going on...

Gonna call my EAP again and see if I am elligible to get back on it. I have been doing ok but now it seems the depression is becoming an issue again and it seems to be worse than before.
I will not go on like this...so I am gonna have to fix it again cause I can't leave my little girl alone in the world without her daddy.
This life is poo and I want a new one damnit!

[tokiwartooth]

I....I really need to go home now. I'm so exhausted I feel like I'm going to fall over.

[jegsu01]

Feeling depressed and wanting to SH/SI.

[tealBumblebee]

Up =] Not ecstatic, not hyper, just up. Calm. Content. Relaxed. Took some time away for myself last night and today, began my second fb hiatus (last time was 2-3 months), cooking a nice dinner (cream of mushroom chicken, yellow rice, green beans), and watching Chicken Little with the itties.

[spondiferous]

I don't really know. It's too hot to tell. I'm frustrated. I want things to be easy. I want to make a choice, and stick with it. I want my calling to step and, y'know, CALL to me. So I can recognize it. And stop being tempted by so many options that I can't make up my mind.
I want to stop feeling like no matter what I decide it's all useless anyway because I'm always going to be ill...

I took the day off from work today because I was not feeling well with a cold. I picked up a cold late on Tuesday with a sore throat. The next two days, it didn't get better. Today it was better, but I decided to stay home just to rest.

I felt like I really didn't rest as much as I should have. I didn't sleep well last night and was worried as to how am I going to call in sick, because it's complicated to do that. At 6 this morning I had it all figured out and the arrangements all worked out well.

At least it was nice to feel better today, but still under the weather with a lot of coughing. At least Saturday is not a working day, so I don't have to get up early like I did this morning.

(((will19))) get well soon!

Just downs. Everything is down. No real joy. No real happiness. I know its bad when thoughts of my daughter barely lift my spirits. Normally just looking at her pictures makes me feel amazingly good.

[herethennow]

A little bit better than yesterday... but tmr it might not be meeting ppl again... Im just tired of all this. I feel like giving up.

[tigerlily84]

Not really sure how I'm feeling today. I just feel like being by myself. And sleeping.

I finally saw my new therapist today. I felt a little better talking to her, but I'm dreading to talk about the horrible thing I did a few years ago. Now I have to make an appt with my Pdoc, who I haven't seen in about 3 years. I hoped I can kick this depression to the curb.

Do you think my Pdoc will re-evaluate me?

[angryworld]

Still down and useless. Had a good talk today though, maybe something will come of that.

[Bark]

I think I'm going to sleep early tonight just to escape my thoughts. I feel them in the background. Starting indirectly. I feel like going off meds again; I hate that feeling. I also hate the feeling of not having that much energy, wanting to sleep in too much, not feeling as motivated as I want to be... But off meds, I'd be tons worse, I know that. And yet I keep having this debate with myself. My ups and downs... it feels like they're bubbling under the surface. I'm going to make myself sleep early and see how I feel tomorrow.

I stayed up late last night for no good reason—I wonder if that's affecting my mood today. I've been horrible about sticking to routines, like taking my meds at a certain time, updating my mood tracker, brushing my teeth at night.... I just don't feel like it. And I don't like that. Oh, I don't know, I'm just going to go sleep and stop blabbering to myself. Part of me feels like staying up, but I'm going to be proactive and not let myself drown in my thoughts.

[NWgirl2013]

Nervous ~ just having an uncomfortable feeling of dread. Something bad is about to happen. I hate being intuitive sometimes.

[jegsu01]

Having mixed emotions right now. Locking myself in my room because parents are arguing. But feeling good about meeting a friend for lunch. I know thats not anything big but when you don't have friends to make one is big.

[tigerlily84]

The goal for today is to write the cover letter for a job I really want. It's an administrative assistant position at a local junior college, and it pays twice what I currently make. I hate writing cover letters (writing in general gives me anxiety due to my perfectionist tendencies), so let's hope I can do this.

Also, I'm pretty sure I caught a cold from a coworker so I'm feeling kind of yucky. Feeling better today though - just exhausted, even after 10 hrs of sleep. Hope everyone has a good day today.

[Bark]

New thread all!

http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...hread-7-a.html