[unfearless]

i dont really have friends, but sometimes they do contact me, old friends, we talked, share things. I've been really depressed these days, even worse than what i've been to before. Sometimes my conversation with them involved my problems, eventually.

As a normal people, they are nice and helpful. But they cant understand what i really feel, not even close. What i'm going through, what i've been through for years. They can only encourage me, suggest me to do this and that, i know "there is nothing that we cant do in this life", but everything in my life is seems impossible at the moment. Its not about depression anymore, but now its also about my whole life & everything around me.

I feel like no one can understand me anymore, except for people in this forum. I have nowhere to go, nothing that i can do, i want to talk about my problems but sometimes i dont want to talk about it anymore, i'm tired and fed up with it.

I'm trying to hold on every single day, i feel like i'm going crazy, too much problems in my head. Everyday i'm surrounded with depression, sadness & anger. So tired with it. Everytime i feel depressed, i told myself, i want this pain to go away, but its never go away, i'm getting tired hoping this pain will go away someday, unfortunately "they" here to stay.

Again, i know you can understand my feelings. Thanks for reading.

[unhappycamper463]

I don't know if it ever goes away. It's exhausting. I feel exactly how you do.

[*woundedhealer*]

Hello unfearless,
I'm not sure if it goes away, but I know it can be better.
I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder while in the hospital.
I felt great when I got out, but it was short lived.
I've been down for about 3 weeks now, and my pdoc changed my meds yesterday.
So, I may have 4-6 weeks before I start digging my way out of this hole.
But, the good news is, with the right therapy, possibly the right meds, it can be even better than tolerable.
Please gang in there.
We're all in this together.

(Hug)

woundedhealer7

Sent from my GS3.

[newlifeyeah]

it never "goes away" by itself. it's only you, who can defeat it. And while this seems horrifying, it's actually calming. Just think about it for one second. It's you, you're body is beautiful. The whole system works on its own. Your organs. Without controlling. You don't need anybody, but you. And if you accept this, you will start your way out of it.

[bharani1008]

I know how you feel. I have literally no one to talk to outside this forum. When I try to talk to my family they just shut down and turn away. They don't want to be bothered. I have no friends close by and the few that I do have are strong and would have no understanding. I don't tell them anything.
What I do do is see my Dr., take my meds, write in my journal, and keep in touch here where I don't feel like such a loser.
So find some nice people here. They won't shut you down.
Good luck

[gracez]

Hi unfearless, unfortunately I don't have any special advice to help. I feel the exact same way. I also feel like I can't relate to anyone easily except the people on this forum, who have the same experience with depression.

I very much understand. I feel like I have a lot going for me, except that I feel lonely a lot. Other than that things are fine.

My problem is having feelings of dread. I can't seem to get rid of it. There had been threats to me, especially health ones. Health anxiety is the biggest thing for me. But the threats always seem to go away in victory. That makes me feel good, but at the same time, it makes me feel guilty because so many are not as fortunate. Makes sense? And I could drive people crazy expressing myself about my health anxiety.

I've had depression that would go away and I would think that it's gone for good. But it manages to come back. And I really hate it when it does.

[emanuelabianca]

Hey. Well, yeah, people can't actually understand your problems too well. They all are so busy right now. It seems that technollogy isn't such a good friend...Instead of finding solutions to improve communication they find ways to keep us busy with all kinds of stuff and we don't interact so much lately. Problems will still exists, time will pass, but scars will always be there. I guess we have to accept reality, forgive ourselves then the people who hurt us. I don't know any better solution... Take care!

The best help for depression, in my view, is to talk to a psychiatrist, take prescribed medications to improve the brain chemistry, and then talk to a therapist about the things that are negative that seem to hold back the positive things that you believe about life.

I once knew a woman who was seriously ill with bone cancer who had the most positive view about her life I've ever known. Her comment about it all was that "people don't like to hear the negative things; they want to know the positive things, so I never talk about my illness." She was a delight to know.

We have to do something similar in depression, I think. After the best therapy, the proper "cocktail" of medications to relieve symptoms, we have a very good chance of finding the "sunlight" in our life rather than living in the inner "darkness". That darkness can be almost consuming if we let it. It's a fight we go through to see the other side of life for us unless we have help. We'll try to help here, and you need to try by seeing the good therapist and talking more about what's bothering you inside.

If you are unable to see a therapist, you may have still the ability to live by your deepest inner principles. Living that way, you will find success, and I don't know of any better way to achieve that than to have strong spiritual support. Prayer helps to dispel depression, and it can lead to a very rewarding inner life for you.

I hope you will be able to afford treatment and get out in front of the things that are driving your thought right now. There is very good help out there, and you deserve it for your own contentment.

Please keep in touch and let us know how you are getting along.

[davmid]

Originally Posted by unfearless

Again, i know you can understand my feelings. Thanks for reading.

Something I've found helpful is a depression support group. I cn go there and tell others what's going on with me and they get it. They've all been there or are there now. It's the first time in my lifew I've been able to say how I feel and be uderstood without judgement or advice that I can't use.

There may be a group like this where you are. The one I go to is free so the only relly hard part is making myself go!

[Pierro]

I know so very well how you are feeling, that blanket of depression is very heavy to carry around all day, and it covers all parts of your life. I know you don't think it now but with the right support and treatment it will get so much better. Talk to your friends although personally they can sometimes dismiss depression. You primary care physician would be a good start if you haven't alreasy gone down this route. Best Wishes to you.