just to make things even more difficult

my mother sent me a really expensive package in the mail today...like boots worth $300. now they are really nice and i absolutely love them but in light of recent events and my relationship with my mother in general it has put me in an extremely difficult position. i was freaking out this morning til my dad informed me she'd got them on special at under 100. so i don't feel quite so bad now, but i am trying to avoid contact w/her and withdrawal gradually from her atm b/c it really isn't good for my mental health (see my last posting), and her doing stuff like this, even though ppl think she is just been nice, it makes me feel like i am being manipulated and guilt-tripped. like she thinks i can be brought or smthn. doesn't she get it? what i want from her isn't designer boots or money or anything like that, it's just to have a real mum who listens to me and is there for me. u can't put a value to that.

(((((Hugs)))) Ever thought of giving them back? Just a thought, that may send a powerful message?? What do you think?

i thought about that and if it was just her to worry about then i probably would, h/ever the problem is it could create tension w/other family members, particularly my father as you can never tell what position he is going to take. and i do want to keep on good terms w/him, but my mother i do not want contact with right now. i am tempted but she is the sort of person who you really cannot get thru to - regardless of whether its hints or downright rejection. she does not listen to a word i say anyway so it could create more trouble than it's worth. tough call, but i don't think i'll be wearing them anytime soon.