don't understand anymore...

How can someone claim to know what it is like to have a debilitating illness like depression?? How can they get all up in your face saying things like you need to get a job, you need to stop "free-loading", and crap like that?? Just because my face/exterior doesn't show how much I struggle doesn't mean I don't at all.

I struggle every single g-darn day just to get out of bed, just to keep myself from ending it all, and just to even put on a smile. How the h*** can you say to me that I am not trying enough?! Saying that I am not trying to get better. w.t.f. ! Every day that I live and can still function on some basic level is almost a miracle.

Sorry about this everyone. My uncle was just here and chewed me out for like a half hour. Never even saw this coming or I would have walked away. I just don't know how much more of this *crap* I can handle. Listening to stuff like this from people who say they care about me is overwhelming.

I get what you're saying. It seems like it is really hard for anyone to understand unless they've been through something similar.

That said, you do eventually have to choose to change. I don't want to leave the house. I'd rather spend all day in bed, but I know that if I want a different life, i have to do certain things. I have to take meds. I have to go to therapy. I have to keep working. Without these things, my life falls apart.

How? Their claim to that knowledge is self-delusion, and they have shut themselves off from knowing that they don't know.

People love to be self-righteous. the world is just that way. It's mean spirited to attack someone who is down already. It says volumes about that person's character. I know that the pain caused from those kinds of attacks cannot be shaken off very easily. It takes a couple of days to get over the shock.
Dealing with life as a depressive is a constant struggle. Just doing ones daily activities takes so much energy. I feel for you because I've been there.
I hope you are getting help. It's so difficult to deal with depression all alone. I'm sure you have seen many posts dealing with this so I won't preach.
I hope you find some relief and can move past this difficult experience.

I think when family members don't know how to fix their depressed family member they get angry. They lash out & say things to the depressed person because they don't know how to fix that person. Underneath anger is always pain. It doesn't make it right but it is what people do. Hang in there!

Hold on! Depression is a horrible disease. I can understand you in this. Very difficult to find a reason to live , I try to take all your time and very tired every day. It helps me a bit. good luck! Write to me I will be happy to talk with you!

I'm sorry he said those things to you. I had a somewhat similar moment with a friend, who said something along the lines of that I am smart enough to figure things out on my own and I don't need therapy. I talked to my therapist about what I thought of this and came up with some good insights for myself.

They don't understand what you are going through, I don't share those "dark moments" with my friend because to me it is sad. She doesn't know that I missed a lot of work because I just could not get myself out of bed or was feeling panicked and paranoid about what the world would bring that day....people who don't suffer don't "get it" and you have to accept that and realize that what they are saying may be a product of an experience they had with themselves or with someone else. Just focus on yourself and getting help through this. I told my therapist that I thought seeking treatment was the smart thing to do because I could not cope with my reactions to life on my own, but I am learning.

I hope you can figure things out and move on from what your uncle said. I feel for ya.

Take Care