[ThisPuzzlesDeadInside]

school is killing me bc im new and i know like no body so its hard to do stuff and its hard to concentrate when im doing school work bc all i think about is life all home... All the screaming and fighting... Thats all me and my mom do now... its hard to get through all this without her... Im having lots of issues and my mom set me up and appt with a T but i wont talk to him bc if i tell him how i truely feel ill get hospitalized... so i have no body to turn to.. and it hurts to know that i cant even go to my own family bc when i try to talk to them they just say i told you so and you shouldnt have done that and blah blah blah i have no support from them whatsoever.... i made a mistake and messed with brothers but ive learned from that... i dont talk to either of them anymore... i thought i was pregnant with one of their kids but im not i started my period... and im kinda happy kinda not bc i really want a kid bc it would be like so great.. i know it would be hard but it would still be great... ive almost cut but i stopped myself but i dont know how much longer i can put it off....

[Bethsway]

Hi...how are you today? Sounds like you are being very hard on yourself...I think a therapist could help you..but maybe the one you went to wasn't the right one for you...don't be afraid to open up...they are there to listen and have heard everything...I am wondering why you think the therapist would hospitalize you? Anyhow...you do have alot of baggage to talk about..you can pm me anytime and just chat...hope you feel better soon...wish your mom could understand what you are going through...but sometimes moms can't handle things..or just don't know how...they don't always have the right answers either...go to therapist again if you can...and remember you are cared about...we all care on here!!!

[pamelasu]

I am sorry that you are having such a hard time. I really do hope that you speak with a therapist because they can become very helpful at times. Please do go back to the therapist and talk about your problems. You will feel better with time.
(((HUGS)))

[ThisPuzzlesDeadInside]

i am really starting to hate my life... everything is going wrong and ive been messing up... im going back to the old me and its scary! SOMEONE HELP ME

[jacq10]

I undersatnd what you are saying about school. I'm in the same position and i know how hard it can be trying to fit in. I honestly dont know what to tell you because i dont know myself, but just know that you are not alone, and i will be thinking of you. As for everything else, maybe you should look into getting another T if you feel like you can't talk to this one. You shouldn't feel as though you can't talk to anyone - no matter how bad things are. they will only get worse if you can't find some way to lessen the stress of everything that you are keeping inside.
Hang in there, and feel free to pm me anytime if you want to chat. ((((hugs))))

[heartspace]

Glad you didn't cut Puzzle. Stay safe. It's hard starting at a new school but you seem really nice so I'm sure it won't take too long for people to see that and warm to you.
(((hugs)))

[ThisPuzzlesDeadInside]

i swear my mom is stupid! She is like really ticking me off... i really hate her i want out of that house and i hope that i can get out soon bc i just cant hack it there anymore...i love my mom to death but i just cant stand her... i need a place i can go... i have places but i mean she wont let me leave...yet she kicks me out like every week! GR what can i do?