Depressed as usual

I would go into detail but... I think everyone already knows anything I might type at this point.

Hugs to you ... I know it helps me to say it out loud even if we all know where you are coming form. Somehow it feels a little less omnious if I put it out there. Hugs.

I don't know. I'm just tired of going through life.

I understand, Poppy Princess. I feel the same way. Doens't seem like i will ever feel better. Hope you mood lifts even if it's for just today.
Gayle

Feel the same. ((((poppyprincess)))) Hope it eases.

I don't see the point anymore

Poppy, when I begin to feel like that, I squeeze 2 fresh lemons into about 5 oz of
water and drink it; if I'm not better in 4 hours, I repeat the process. That should
calm you really very nicely inside in terms of your emotions.

The truth is that we build so much acid in tissues and organs in the body when
we are under stress of any kind (that's one reason why we try so hard to avoid
stress if we can) and it has a big role to play in feeling tone and in building that
acid. It's almost as if one causes the other.

The lemon and lime are probably the most alkaline foods we can ingest, though
they taste bitter, they are transformed in digestion into an alkaline residue that helps to remove acidity from the body. It works for some of us and it might work for you.

Give it 2 days please before you decide that it doesn't appear to be working for
you. If you feel better after 2 days, you'll know it helps, and thereafter, you should
use it only occasionally when you feel these low feeling tones beginning to emerge.

It actually helps to calm the mind and lift feeling tone.

How's your sleeping? Are you getting a full night's restful sleep? That is so
important in energizing our "battery". If you aren't, I'd see a doctor and ask for
a prescription for a helpful aid at least temporarily.

Xanax has been prescribed for me (.5 mg) to be used only when necessary for
release of tension or as a sleep aid. It's a good one, but can be addictive, so you'd
want to be very careful about using it only when you've had two or three nights
of little sound sleep. I've had a prescription for over two years and never had
a problem with addiction.

And, don't forget to drink plenty of purified water. That is really a pick up for
feeling tone.

You also need to eat more green vegetables and add a fresh salad to your meals daily.
They help to keep tissues and fluids more alkaline, and the slightly alkaline state
is the best for feeling good.

I keep worrying about your being afraid. That, you need to get out with a psychiatrist,
because it's hindering any effort you make to clear up the brain chemistry that is
causing such low feeling tone. That really needs to be swept from your mind by
talking about it in the privacy of a specialist's office, in my view.

Keep in touch about the feelings, please.

When you're this low, don't worry about looking far ahead. Put one foot in front of the other, when you have to move. Breathe in and out. Sigh. Try the lemon trick genetic suggested or some other feel-good. Don't stress with anything, be easy on yourself.

Susan

I've done the lemon, the water, the green food, the nice thoughts, the trees, the sunshine, and the smiling. It doesn't work. I'm not trying to shoot anyone down but that's the way it is I'm afraid. The exercise and the good sleep just don't help.

Poppy, you haven't discussed whether you have been on addictive drugs at any time
in the past. Are you willing to discuss that with us? One major consequence of
use of illicit drugs is that they can create a condition known as "indifference", a
state in which the emotions are just withdrawn from a person's life.

Frankly, it sounds a little to me as though you might be experiencing something like
that or a reaction to a traumatic experience that has caused you to withdraw your
emotions.

I've really offered all I know to suggest; you have to put forth the effort to get to
the bottom of your emotionless state; otherwise, the status quo won't change.

I hope you will see a therapist to get the help you need to work through the trauma
or alleviate the consequences of past drug use, if that's what it is.

Your fear is a significant symptom. Something's there that needs to be relieved
from either your unconscious or conscious life; therapy can be beneficial.

No, I've never been on any addictive drugs.

I have been seeing a therapist. I've actually seen four different ones.

There is probably something that you haven't discussed with your therapists because if you get at the root of indifference, it will leave you. It may go as far back as your childhood, especially if you were reared in a dysfunctional family.

Barring that, if you feel you've done all that needs to be done in psychiatric help, you should see a neurological specialist perhaps for a brain scan to determine if all if okay there.

I was raised by my mom. It was just the two of us. She sometimes swore at me or hit and hurt me. She still loved me though I think.

If that's the case, you might be lacking the influence of a father which is important
in a child's life.

Why not pick out an image of a man whom you have respected and thought highly of
in your life and pattern your behavior somewhat on the positive qualities that he
had? Incorporating a positive male image into your life may help you build the added
strength you need to feel that you are functioning in a healthy and competent way.

Your mother, by the way, was not as positive as she should have been. She never
should have sworn at you or hit or hurt you. Discipline is important in a child's
life, but there are better ways to do it than your mother did. Her method was
very hurtful to your little child within, but have courage; we all have been injured
in some way by things in our childhood. That's one reason we develop a protective
image inside ourselves to see that our little child remains free from bondage.

You need a good therapist to help you understand how to protect your little child
inside you. For the moment, until you get in to see a really GOOD therapist, try to
let the image of a loving and powerful man (who would be, naturally a very gentle
person--because it takes real strength to be gentle) be the father that you need
to protect you in your life at this time. (I have an image in my mind of both a
Mother and Father who protect my little child within from harm.)

I just looked at your Avatar. I had no idea that you are a woman until I saw that.
Still, I think the father image is important for you, not to imitate, but to have as
a protective force for your child within. That would be catastropic to try to
imitate that!

Your real help is going to come from an expert psychotherapist who can help
your mother image as you try to live a healthy life.

Sorry about the misconception of your gender.

Take care of yourself.

((((( poppy )))))))
Sending warmth, care and support

Dear Poppyprincess, I can really relate to how you feel, "Depressed as usual". I often ask myself, when will it ever go away? I exercise, try to be positive, try to speak positively to myself. I often find myself withdrawing from others, feeling like suffering is all I will ever know. I often hate my life, BUT...once I tried to take my life, and the experience I went through was so horrible. I never, ever want to go through it again. If I ever think of hurting myself, I immediately dismiss the thought. I am trying to get better, and hurting myself would be a really bad move. I find that I need to remind myself to be my own best friend. I have had to often say no to requests that put extra stress on me. (By the way, I like the sound of the lemon remedy. Cant hurt, might help.) Hoping that we both find some joy today. And lets hold tightly to it!

Oh, it's okay. I didn't realize you thought I was a guy.

It's hard to tell on here.

Thanks for all the advice by the way. I can't really think of any men who have been in my life now that you mention it.

Just hang in there guys. I too feel so low, but I'm just holding on. I know it will pass, but not sure when and for how long. U might wanna see ur Dr and try different meds if you already trying some and there's no improvement after a few weeks.