[1948kate]

Pissed off! My Pdoc sent SS a letter saying that I am competent to handle my own affairs, including money and health care. But Medicare sent my EOB to my representative payee. Still haven't received my check. Anyone else have this problem? Is it possible to get this changed, or does the government just continue to stigmatize us. If anyone is incompetent it's them! They can't even do their jobs and pass legislation!

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by 1948kate

Pissed off! My Pdoc sent SS a letter saying that I am competent to handle my own affairs, including money and health care. But Medicare sent my EOB to my representative payee. Still haven't received my check. Anyone else have this problem? Is it possible to get this changed, or does the government just continue to stigmatize us. If anyone is incompetent it's them! They can't even do their jobs and pass legislation!

Google; disability rights____(your state)____ and ask them if they can help you. This is the kind of thing they help with. However due to sequestration and now the government shut down it may take some time. They may be able to help you or they might refer you to another place. Since your pdoc supports you and he is the expert they should be allowing you to resume your independence You do have the rights.

[tokiwartooth]

I don't feel well. I think I'm catching my mom's upper respiratory infection.

lol, my psychiatrist said I can't stay in my dorm if I don't continue treatment with her (which by the way, I don't think I need) because if something happened to me it'd be their responsibility. Lol, oh, so, they only care about saving their own ***? As long as I'm their patient and agree to do whatever the hell they want? That's nice.

Down: I think this new morning dose of lamictal is making me very tired
Ups: Pdoc okayed stopping the morning dose, so I don't feel like I need to go behind his back and stop it. Also, am able to do some things today, despite my fatigue. Trying to keep a positive outlook that I will be able to do the planned 3-day getaway with my husband Monday morning

[Martek]

In a bad place, need to find a distraction

[bluedolphin92]

It's my 21st birthday and I'm drinking alone. Oh joy.

[1948kate]

Doing fine, slept too long, so I'm trying to get over the grogginess.

Feeling a little better since yesterday. Let's see how long that last.

[SilverNeurotic]

I woke up determined to spend the day cleaning house and even planned a bit of a romantic night for my husband and I...then I got out of bed and have done absolutely nothing except take a bath, read and waste time on the computer. I feel like such a failure today.

[wushuduck]

Does anyone ever have zero feelings? Like, not even sadness, just... nothing.

[bluedolphin92]

My 21st birthday was yesterday. It went alright, I guess. I did find some pretty cool people to hang out with, so at least I wasn't alone. But this one guy friend of mine who I really like and really wanted to wish me a happy birthday didn't

This guy lives pretty far away from me and is someone I met online. I thought he was interested in seeing me in real life sometime soon, and had texted him on Thursday to ask when we'd be able to do that. He hasn't talked to me at all since then, so I'm really worried that I was wrong and he doesn't want to meet and I freaked him out or something

[ToeJam]

Was a little stupid last night, as I resorted to drinking with it being the weekend and liking to mix some whisky and coke while I wind down. It's a ritual of habit (I don't drink during the week) but I knew it was a bit too soon with the new dose of medication and did it anyway.

Been feeling empty as a result today so I'm taking it as a practical lesson not to do it again.

[bronzeowl]

So, went from not sleeping at all for about the past two months. (That's a bit of a lie, I have slept - like 2-4 hours a night on average) To oversleeping today. Woke up at 3 freaking 30. So, I've gotten nothing done yet. I need to read another chapter in my Psychology book and start on French. But I just had to oversleep. I guess I'll have to bring this up in my next appointment. Since I mentioned off sleeping patterns. Meh.

Ups? None so far.

Downs? Everything.

been feeling okay (almost mannic actually!)

[wushuduck]

Originally Posted by bronzeowl

So, went from not sleeping at all for about the past two months. (That's a bit of a lie, I have slept - like 2-4 hours a night on average) To oversleeping today. Woke up at 3 freaking 30. So, I've gotten nothing done yet. I need to read another chapter in my Psychology book and start on French. But I just had to oversleep. I guess I'll have to bring this up in my next appointment. Since I mentioned off sleeping patterns. Meh.

Ups? None so far.

Downs? Everything.

I'm in the same boat, mate. I've been oversleeping so much the past two weeks, but the for month or two prior to that I was getting zilch sleep a night, epsecially when I was without sleeping tablets, and then I'd get like a couple of hours sleep in the afternoon.

[bronzeowl]

Originally Posted by Twigg

I'm in the same boat, mate. I've been oversleeping so much the past two weeks, but the for month or two prior to that I was getting zilch sleep a night, epsecially when I was without sleeping tablets, and then I'd get like a couple of hours sleep in the afternoon.

That's exactly it. Sometimes, I have to take Nyquil or something to help me get to sleep. Then other times, I oversleep so much... It sucks, doesn't it?

[don964964]

haha

[wushuduck]

Originally Posted by bronzeowl

That's exactly it. Sometimes, I have to take Nyquil or something to help me get to sleep. Then other times, I oversleep so much... It sucks, doesn't it?

Maybe your doctor could provide you some better medication if you go an see him about it? Zopiclone worked a charm on me, butt I had to take it at like 8 at night so I fell asleep and could get up really early.

[bronzeowl]

I'm not on any at the moment. I have an appointment to talk about medication Thursday. Maybe I'll bring it up then.

[wushuduck]

Originally Posted by bronzeowl

I'm not on any at the moment. I have an appointment to talk about medication Thursday. Maybe I'll bring it up then.

Good idea. I'm not necessarily saying you should be on Zopiclone, but it would be good to discuss your troubles sleeping with your doc and see what he thinks.

[themonster7]

It's my birthday tomorrow... What could be more depressing than that?

[don964964]

It's my birthday tomorrow... What could be more depressing than that?
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well I say HAPPY BIRTHDAY themonster7

I hope you have a great day

[PinkBearsMimi]

Originally Posted by don964964

well I have a lot I want to say .. just wish I had some one to talk to .. so this may be a long babble....
it's been 56 weeks 2 days and 4 hours and a couple minutes since the love of my life passed away..... I been on her legacy site .. "it comes down on the 16th this month .. I wrote ... but I need to down load it .... I miss her so much ....

Well the summer rains have brought -a - almost second spring .. the hills are full of flowers , yellow , orange , some red ... very pretty , very uncommon for here..
getting cold now . winters acomin..

ok for weeks months a year ? I have had my termination date set.. well it is next Tuesday at around midnight so Wednesday early am . witch happens to be my birthday I was reborn to purgatory "I wont say how many years ago" so I have had every intent on that being my day to get reborn into purgatory again... dumb aye ?

I have always kept my word , it is honor it is integrity its is how I have always lived.
So do I break that ? to myself ? In ways I feel I cant .. but my girls ,,,, my son ,, whom I have never met yet just talked to a few times .

so what do I do ? I am so sick of grief .I am so sick of being depressed . I am so sick of living like this ..!!!! the I'm on my way. I'm right down the street. Be ready. my body is shot ,, my brain is shot LOL ..

well we see .. I want to but what it would do to my girls .. they don't know how I feel so lost so lonely so scared so hurt .. my lovers dog is getting to where he can hardly walk some times ,,, he stares down the road waiting for her , them to come home .... and so do I..

ok BARK : so many happy happy memories of life n the kids
oh and the glory of a second blooming of flowers befor winter
so wonderful

You keep going on. Spring you will be living with family again. It seems far away but it's not. If you killed yourself, I could not be strong for mychildren. You are. my strength. You are very loved and all we want is you to live here with us. You won't be alone. And your mental state will greatly improve. It's hard right now, ony a few months til you can be here. It would destroy me and the girls. I would go back to shooting up meth everyday if you killed yourself! I'd need to block the pain somehow! Then what would the kids do? Loose papa and mom and grandma all in one year!!

[lindammarie]

Don't have a lot to say. I made myself get through everything I tried to do today. A lot left undone, though. I have to put a eulogy together for an online friend. I'm having trouble getting started. It's 1 a.m. and I really need to get some sleep. Maybe tomorrow I'll be more inspired.