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#576
Oct 07, 2013, 02:08 AM
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My daughter found the courage at the tender age of 7.5 to tell her mama that she wants her parents to get back together. I already knew this because she is so much like me and she tells me things now that she wont tell her mama cause mama gets angry, loud, and at times frightens her.
This, of course, is all my fault naturally. I am so proud of my baby girl for sharing what was in her heart. Her mama and I have many things to iron out, but I am ready and willing and able. Nuff said. |
 Bark, lindammarie, tigersassy
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#577
Oct 07, 2013, 02:50 AM
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not sure how today is going to go yet as i've only just got up!
will post to this thread later |
| lindammarie
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#578
Oct 07, 2013, 05:27 AM
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went to bed at 10pm, got up at 2am. its now almost 5:30am... cant sleep. work at 10am. was feeling nauseous last i ate was some popcorn chicken at 7pm yesterday? ate a little something... i think i feel more nauseous now that ive eaten... so incredibly depressed right now... nothing is serving as a good distraction... not tired either.. ugh
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| Bark, lindammarie
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#579
Oct 07, 2013, 06:45 AM
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Called out of work this morning. I guess it was inevitable that I would get sick-I've been so stressed out from training those new reps. I was thinking about why I didn't get promoted, and yet my boss has me do supervisor tasks. It's like I am good enough to do the work and not get paid for it. Sorry to bore you all with work stuff, nothing else is going on with me ATM.
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| Bark, lindammarie, tigersassy
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#581
Oct 07, 2013, 07:45 AM
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i'm tired. tired of this facade, only to find myself back in somewhere secluded to get a good cry, or to release the pain by SI. tired of making others happy, and shortchanging myself in return.
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"The is no better exercise for the human heart than reaching and lifting others up." - John Holmes herethennow: This ward is a prison! dx: recurrent MDD.
Wardmate: No.. here's not a prison. *points to brain* Here is. |
| Bark, Clara22, lindammarie
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#582
Oct 07, 2013, 07:54 AM
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Slept well but morning started a little rough. Almost 9AM and am much better. This, too, shall pass - thank goodness.
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| lindammarie
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#583
Oct 07, 2013, 07:55 AM
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| lindammarie, themonster7
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#584
Oct 07, 2013, 11:26 AM
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Feel better today, full of hope, maybe the NRI kicked in or the fact i got tons of calls about a job....But after 2 days of pure depression i feel fine...and it is nice.
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"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing......Only I will remain." |
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#585
Oct 07, 2013, 12:15 PM
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Posted earlier this morning, at home now.
Today was bloody horrendous. Struggled to get out of bed this morning, was so tired until about 4pm. Kept finding myself staring off into the distance at work and going over intrusive thoughts of negativity... almost all of the jobs I did were slow, I just couldn't find the motivation, will or energy to get going. My supervisor pretty much left me alone as he's aware of the situation (for that I can be grateful)... but yeah, really crap day 
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#586
Oct 07, 2013, 12:20 PM
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I miss him and I hate having to wait until the 16th to see him when he comes back
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| lindammarie
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#587
Oct 07, 2013, 01:06 PM
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My cell phone got hacked. They were looking, I think for CC #'s, of which we only had two of online; but they got them. One the CC co. called within an hour and we rejected the charge. The other is only $53, but I'm disputing it. I of course filed reports, put alerts on, etc., and my brother-in-law is a retired ex-CIA, FBI guy, familiar with this stuff and more, so gonna try and get his help too.
Hope everyone is doing ok. I haven't been able to get online much from this crap 'cause I used my cell phone for most things, and haven't had time to set up a home computer. Hope all can/will be sometime soon be feeling well, if possible... P.S. I'm at the library writing this, and in the past few days, and just now, I've seen elderly people talking very loudly and pedantically (sp?) to the staff.... it sounds to me that they feel they are not heard because of being aged, and/or they are lonely.... feeling bad for them. This year has been a doozy....
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| lindammarie, Nammu
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#588
Oct 07, 2013, 03:07 PM
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Can you be stressed and depressed at the same? Or is it one or the other?
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| lindammarie
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#589
Oct 07, 2013, 04:19 PM
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My friend still seems to be ignoring me
Unfortunately the phone is really the only way I have of contacting him, so I have no way of knowing if he really IS ignoring me or there's just something wrong with his phone. Either way it's really upsetting me, probably more than it should. I want to text him again today but I feel like I've already texted more him more than enough at this point and I don't want to seem desperate. Ugh.
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"The rain keeps crawling down the glass. The good times never seem to last. Close your eyes and let the thought pass."
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| Clara22, happy 2 b here, lindammarie
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#591
Oct 07, 2013, 10:42 PM
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Got triggered again tonite. Was trying to get thru the day after seeing T this morning which went poorly. Between the T & the triggering punishment was dealt out. Voices calling for equal justice! Dark voices singing their siren song. God what have I done!
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#592
Oct 08, 2013, 12:36 AM
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I snagged a rental car for a good price, I'm going to be driving up to MN tomorrow night.
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Nammu Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. ... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#593
Oct 08, 2013, 02:34 AM
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Woke up feeling a bit better and awake this morning. Yesterday was hellish, a number of things triggered me off so going to be early was probably the best thing I could do. Feeling calmer and have been able to put things in perspective.
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#594
Oct 08, 2013, 07:54 AM
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I still miss him. My dad was really annoying last night. Do you like John Denver? No, I don't. I don't like his style. Well maybe you should listen to these two songs, don't just brush him off. I HAVE LISTENED TO THEM BEFORE, I STILL DON'T LIKE THE SONGS, MOM USED TO PLAY THEM AND I NEVER GOT INTO IT, DON'T TELL ME I'M BRUSHING HIM OFF YOU SON OF A ****.
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#596
Oct 08, 2013, 11:29 AM
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About to go see my shingles doctor for the first time in 3 months. Crazy nervous but optimistic at the same time.
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#597
Oct 08, 2013, 11:43 AM
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Well, after being awake for about 26 hours? I finally got myself to sleep by drinking. I was hoping not to have to do that... it made me super anxious... slept for 8 hours though. I'm still really tired.
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#598
Oct 08, 2013, 12:02 PM
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see yall think its just about G well they a way bigger mind **** here for me ...  you my lil space child I so proud of you ..... I love you dad AKA h.hogan 
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#600
Oct 08, 2013, 02:15 PM
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low and depressed this evening.
and feeling extremely lonely was doing fine today though |
| lindammarie
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