[lindammarie]

Originally Posted by bohemiangirl85

Can you be stressed and depressed at the same? Or is it one or the other?

Sounds like my life.

[tigerlily84]

Called out of work again today, mostly because I didn't want to go. But in part because I still didn't feel well enough to go and see everyone. Tomorrow.

[lindammarie]

I still haven't finished the eulogy. Why is it so easy to get sidetracked?

Kinda tired of ups and downs really.
I need some middle of the road, not too left or right of center for a while.

[themonster7]

Thought I had been getting better the past 2 months, but these last 2 weeks have been possibly worse than ever before. Haven't gotten out of bed yet and it's 7pm...

Forced myself out of bed and took a nice therapeutic walk around a lake. Now I'm back in my bed and feeling a lot better.

[Patagonia]

The absolute pits again, I cant stand myself. I'm ready to throw in the towel. Miserable really isn't that bad.

Ahhh things have been going so bad recently. Flaky clients and cheap clients. I've had a big problem staying motivated lately. Was going to just go back to sleep this morning but I didn't. It seems like a good thing but it's an uphill battle and I don't know what will happen tomorrow or the next day.

[themonster7]

Feel like I'm going to explode... Nothing to be anxious about but the anxiety attack is coming.

[Poppy Princess]

Just sadness

[ToeJam]

A mixture today. Moment of calmness and moments of intrusive thoughts but all in all it has been a tolerable day.

Decided to be pro-active once I got home and started to write a story. Taking small steps and hammered out 500 words before saving and closing word. I'm going to try and do a stint every day for 30 minutes or so and see what grows from it It did help take my mind off of things for a while but perhaps that's a man thing... one track mind and all that

UPS
Doing well today, had some restful sleep
DOWNS
Too much stress from one part of my life

[lindammarie]

I guess I was meant to be left alone. That, or I am mostly invisible.

[Poppy Princess]

Sorry, lindammarie <3

[JanuaryGirl]

I've never joined one of these threads before... I hope it is ok for me to join now.

Ups - I am in a safe place.
Downs - Depression and anxiety are becoming overwhelming again, and after several calls to my doctor, I still haven't heard back from them.

I hear ya, lindammarie, I feel invisible and unimportant right now.

[Nammu]

Welcome January girl.

I picked up the rental car but I'm feeling really nauseated, with twisted guts and headachy, hoping I haven't caught something. I want to leave early am, like 4am, so I can miss the rush hour both here and the next metropolis. On the other hand if I've caught something, I need to wait cause mom has am impaired immune system.

[1948kate]

Sore throat, allergy hell, but feeling fine otherwise

[Patagonia]

I couldn't get my brain to settle down in my T session. There were so many conversations going in my head that both my T's know I wasn't "there." Waste of time. I see a new Pdoc tomorrow & hoping to find a turning point out of this black hole w/some new meds....possibly????
At this point ill try anything

[tigersassy]

Almost missed my Med dose. Feeling like crap. Beating myself up because of how my personality is. Then back to work tomorrow. So work two days then off for two days. Crappy crappy crappy not looming forward to going back. Wish there was an easier way to make money. Kindda wish life was easier for people like me. Dealing with crap like this it is a disease. It eats at a persons mind and makes them question everything. I'm over therapy I'm over meds I thought I was doing better. I was accepting me and now not so much. I want to beat the crap outta myself. These thoughts need to stop. I'm not suicidal I just hate me right now.

[Patagonia]

I'm a blob of matter taking up space in this world. Space that could be put to so much better use. I talked to H tonite & see things so much more clearer. I take up space & don't do anything. Hes so tired of worrying about me that it consumes him @ work. I didn't know that. Then he comes home & wonders what I did all day. That must be horrible! He doesn't talk to me anymore bec hes so worried he'll trigger something that he chooses not to speak. I did that to him. Me & me alone. Ive destroyed a pretty happy extroverted guy & turned him into a worrying, sad & frustrated man. My sickness has made him sick.
What damage am I going to cause my children? They don't deserve such a sick mom. I don't deserve my family. I don't want my family! I don't deserve to breath anymore & waste that too

[Sneezyyy]

So I've been on Wellbutrin for a few me months. Limictal added about 2.5 weeks ago. Been feeling better with depression lately but still have episodes here and there. Had one last night when trying to fall asleep. That kept me from sleeping much again last night even after taking an Ambien.

sneezyyy

[themonster7]

Got school and stuff... Will be getting out of bed today.

[Patagonia]

Very bad place. Bad thoughts. Triggers lining up.

The only ups are I got out of bed today and am trying to function.

Down: Depression has me in a deep grip. I have never felt this bad in my whole life. Is it a medication problem? Circumstances? What do I do to get out of this? It is so painful, most waking moments. I don't have the wherewithal (sp?) to do anything about it though. Nothing seems to help - - meds, therapy. I just feel like I'm getting worse and worse and slipping more into non-functioning. I want out of the game, but I know I'll stay in and just keep suffering until some sort of miracle happens and I don't feel this way anymore.

having the day from hell today with my moods

blah..

[1948kate]

Bronchitis, yuck, cough cough. But the mind seems to be doing well today. I love Autum!